I hate my addiction, advice?

[nancyscuck]

I tend to have a very addictive personality. It does not matter what I try to do as it all tends to consume me. This also extends into my sex life including being a wannabe, trying/experimenting things I never would have. Some I enjoyed and will try again and others maybe not. I found my point of balance during this experimental stage. I always exercised safety when experimenting.
I have also found discussing in a safe free zone like this has been helpful for me.
However if this is unmanageable and is controlling/effecting your life/relationships I also would suggest getting some professional help. Best of luck!

 

[winnie21]

Look, this website and porn in general are exaggerated and are made to capture people like you, sadly as I'm sure you've seen there are plenty of brainwashed idiots on this site, but it's all horseshit, the best advice I can give you is this, understand that Asian, Black or White guys can all have big or small Dick's, they can all be alpha or beta, what you need to do is start getting better and more sleep, focus on building your body as you apparently already do, focus on getting the best career you can, and avoid porn at all costs, take up hobbies, do anything to fill that addiction with something less damaging, then once you are confident in yourself you will be able to be with a woman that and have a good time with her, fulfilling quality relationships cannot exist when porn is involved.

Spot on. Quality relationship will never happen if either uses porn as a crutch. my partner after my divorce , wow stunning lady . I just am 6” and I had her singing like a hummingbird bird . Size I agree is fun my ex loved It but it’s not for all.

 

[Gfwatcher]

Stop watching porn, focus on other things in your life, go as long as you can without masturbating each time and when you do try to focus on sensations or real sex not fantasies, the longer you can go without masturbating each time the quicker you can reboot, this reboot process can take anywhere from a month realistically to probably 6 months, probably more the latter for you as been exposing yourself and training your mind to this stuff for years. Look up nofap, there’s even apps that can help, carry on down this path and not only will you not cum you won’t get hard either, also try meditation and mindfulness, when the porn urge comes, slow breathing down and heart rate, do something instead, maybe a quick 30 press ups, exercise is a good option as also releases dopamine, good luck...it will be worth it

 

[Little willi 5]

I am very similar to you. Im 60 but been addicted since i was 16 not going to change now and dont want to ever change.

I just like you, love being this way. Theres nothing better. The rest of the white world has to catch up with us. A generation of little dick wite boys knowing nothing but black male superiority. Young white boys growing up knowing nothing else , that's enough excitement for most of us.

 

[bobter65]

Same here mate, feel you... Addicted to it. somehow love it and somehow hate it

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[Cuckles]

Why do you hate it? I dont understand. Porn in general gets a negative view. Its almost like a dirty little secret. I think thats b.s. Ppl like watching football. Ppl like watching big black cocks fucking white girls. You dont have a disease like many want you to believe.

 

[33deTrio]

Hello,
I'm not sure if i'm in the good place to speak about that, i don't want to be intolerant or something, what i will say is 100% truth :

PRESENTATION

first of all, i'm french so, sorry if my english is not perfect.​

i've 30 years old.​

i'm 1.88 and 100kg, i do alot of musculation, for most of girls i look like "alpha".​

my penis is 19cm (and pretty large, most girls i had also tell that i have a "black dick" no joke).​

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So that's for the presentation, the idea is that i really look like alpha male...​

NOW HERE IS MY STORY :

Since my 14 i started to masturbate on 2 things => cuckold IR and shemales.​

this is my 2 addictions, the proportion is 70% cuckold and 30% shemales.​

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i'm totally hooked guys, i tryed to have shemale girlfriend (at tinder) at multiples times. I saw them (but they were ugly in face to face).​

i fucked 2 shemales ******* in my life (while i was in couple...i know i'm bad, but i used condom of course) and i LOVED IT. first time at 26 years, the last time at 28 years.​

AT THE SAME TIME :

With girls, i had alot girlfriends in my life. The first time we fuck is ok, but really really fast i need to imagine that she is a black owned slut to cum, or it's impossible.​

I can fuck a girl like 2 hours without cuming if i not think about black dicks...​

I had a blonde girlfirend at 24 years old, not the most sexy (not bad), but she was a black cock slut (i was the first white she fucked), i let you imagine how it was in my head when i fucked her...​

And now, to cum, i ALWAYS think about this blonde girl, i close my eyes when i fuck a girl, and i think about this blonde, fucked by alot of black mens, full of cum, me sloppy second ...

Guys i'm totally hooked, i never seen a white dick in a porn with a girl, since my 15 years old, it's desguisting for me (however i can jack off with a white guy fucking a shemale, for me it's ok...It's like in my fucked brain a white guy can't fuck a white girl anymore but is allowed to fuck a shemale....).

I think about this lifestyle everyday, when i encounter a girl i always try to know (with some skilled questions) if she like black man or if she ever get fucked by a black man.

it's very important for me, this lifestyle is devouring my brain, i love it so much you can't even imagine...I mean, i guess you can because you are into...

SO
-has i said, i'm 30, i'm not ugly, but i can't cum without imagining my girlfriends fucked by a black OR i think always about my ex blonde who was BBC whore, and i cum.
-i always try to know if my girlfriend was a bbc whore before me.

The reason of my post here, no offense guys, but :

I HATE IT​

I mean, of course i love it, of course i would love to be with a sexy white blonde queen of spades who cheats me with all the blacks of the city, i want to raise mixed childs, i want [...] Of course i love this fetish.

BUT for me, it's like a *******, a desease, i know it's not normal (we can't lie guys, licking the seed of a black man out of a pussy is not normal) and i want to clean my brain.
I want to be able to cum with a sexy girl without the need of imagining her fucked by black mens.
I want to have a normal life.
Because has i said this is like a *******, it's a pure pleasure but it's destroyin my life : my relationships with girls; my libido...Sometimes i don't even cum with my girlfriend and when i go back home, i can cum in 10mins watching IR cuckold porn...I need to change.

EDIT : sorry i missclicked
So please do you have any advice? does some guys here did a 180 degree turn over? What shall i do to clean my brain? I respect all guys who love it (i'm into it too since my 14, at 100%) but i need to move out, it's not the way of life i want if i think seriously without excitation....
I need help and advice to be normal please.

thanks for the time.

You are probably gay, but you refuse to admit it. Have a girlfriend is like to fuck with black men by proxy. The simple fact you fuck several shemale was probably a way to say to yourself "i'm not gay". I think the best place to talk about it, is with a psy, not here. I understand you must hate it, you will never find what you seek by this way. Talk about here is like to share your problem with other that have the same mental illness, and i say it not to be rude with you. In our case we are not at all cuckold but swingers, in the worst case i'm the cuckold (she) because i like to see him fuck girls sometimes and he refuse to let me look to much time. I'm bi curious, i hate men the most of time, i ve a bad opinion about myself and sexe... and we do threesome with black men therefore. I'm like Doc Jekyll and mr Hyde, i'm sometimes a whore and too much times a nun. My man is near your own shape, 1m80 for +90/95 it depends, in shape, musculation and martials arts. Well stuffed, i see only one time a dick bigger than his, and the guy was not really good. You can't try to submit my man he is a real alpha and can ******* somebody when he become angry, men that fuck me are selected by him and i always aware that they must stay at their place, a guest. Then i can see the difference, you could continue to train for yourself, because you like to be in shape, it's not my case i dislike sport but i see him practicizing everyday... but stop to pretend somebody you are not, i think you fear to accept yourself because you link probably thinks with courage or something else. But i think the best way for you is to release all this think that seems to be fake.

Sorry for my english i'm french, in social work... this is why i know a bit about things like this.

 

[Cuckles]

In reality, men are much more obsessed with penis size than women but as far as i can see this is not the problem. Guys are getting bored with white on white porn and looking for different porn at least that's how i started. I watched so many ir videos but i've never had such a fantasy. I watched it because there is so much content and the contrast feels different from other porn. If you can't watch other videos for now, you should stay away from brainwashing propaganda videos and watch other ir videos. Because as I see you are easy to manipulate. You need self confidence and some ego. You should change your perspective and see that ir porn is barely different from other porn and that little difference is the skin color and the comments on it. (Sorry for bad english btw, i used translate.)

Why would you say its brainwashing propaganda. Its more like we've been brainwashed and IR porn is just straightening us out. So when a white man fucks a white girl its reality and when a black man fucks a white girl its a fantasy??? WTF you realize how racist that sounds.