Curious if anybody has had a similar experience. My time on this site has done two things: reiterated that nothing turns me on more than the fantasy of watching my wife get fucked by a black guy, and only deepened that fantasy; and 2) made me realize I probably don't actually want to do it, at least right now.
In a vacuum there's nothing that I'd love more than to see my wife riding a BBC. But the fantasy is really more like seeing my wife in a cuckold porn, if you will. I want that one hour when she's getting fucked and I can watch. But this site has a lot of great input on the other 23 hours in a day of this lifestyle. I've realized all of the other real life consequences that come with it, like her being gone at nights, going on dates with another man, navigating another person's (or people) role in our lives, etc. is not something I really want to deal with.
I'm very sure she would love it sexually, I can see how much difference me being 100% hard vs just "hard" makes when we have sex and could only imagine what a BBC would do. I could see her getting hooked. Not to mention how coming clean about my fantasy would change her viewpoint of me.
The fantasy still turns me on like nothing else, and it's still something I think about even when we have sex. I'll keep posting here and writing in the fantasy section because it turns me on a ton. But at this point it's not something I'm actively thinking about telling my wife or trying to get her to do. If it was ever something she expressed interest in then yeah, I think 100%, but I'm less motivated to sort of push her into it.
Anybody else had similar feelings after posting here for a while?
In a vacuum there's nothing that I'd love more than to see my wife riding a BBC. But the fantasy is really more like seeing my wife in a cuckold porn, if you will. I want that one hour when she's getting fucked and I can watch. But this site has a lot of great input on the other 23 hours in a day of this lifestyle. I've realized all of the other real life consequences that come with it, like her being gone at nights, going on dates with another man, navigating another person's (or people) role in our lives, etc. is not something I really want to deal with.
I'm very sure she would love it sexually, I can see how much difference me being 100% hard vs just "hard" makes when we have sex and could only imagine what a BBC would do. I could see her getting hooked. Not to mention how coming clean about my fantasy would change her viewpoint of me.
The fantasy still turns me on like nothing else, and it's still something I think about even when we have sex. I'll keep posting here and writing in the fantasy section because it turns me on a ton. But at this point it's not something I'm actively thinking about telling my wife or trying to get her to do. If it was ever something she expressed interest in then yeah, I think 100%, but I'm less motivated to sort of push her into it.
Anybody else had similar feelings after posting here for a while?