I suppose it’s a bit of a taboo subject in many ways, but I’m wondering if anyone else is in the same situation I am in?
I met an absolutely great guy before falling into this lifestyle. I love him, completely, and he’s now my sub too. Of course, dominating a weak man doesn’t feel like domination at all, so he’s strong and intellectually very impressive. He submits to me, and has now listened chained up in an adjacent room as I’ve fucked more superior black men than I can probably remember at this point. He’s even been handcuffed and blindfolded in the same room, with me kissing him while being powerfully pounded from behind by BBC.
We’ve talked about it, of course, at length, and while there is unwillingness from him, there is also consent. I have found I NEED that unwillingness from him too. For me nothing can compare with nasty animalistic sex with a dominant BBC who knows what he’s doing. If my sub was enjoying what I was doing, I’d feel like I was performing for him in a way and that poured a little cold water on the whole thing for me. I actually found that adding in the ‘betrayal’ angle of allowing my lust for BBC and being black-owned to overpower my responsibility to protect the man I love just sent my arousal and orgasms off the chart.
When I read stuff here it’s clear that most couples involve a man who wants to be cuckolded, who gets turned on himself by it. So wondered two things:
1. Are there any hotwives in the same situation as me?
2. Are there any BBC here who are turned on by being the dominant bulls in such a situation and get similarly aroused by the thought of an unwilling cuck ****** to live a life of you owning and controlling the woman he loves?
first of all, we are "retired" from the lifestyle.
However, we enjoyed 14 years of absolute mind-boggling sex. Or, I did, anyway!
Tom (my husband) is a rancher and total man's man to everyone around him and everyone that ever encounters him.
My first seduction is posted on this site as a story (seduced by a 30 year old black man), and to my surprise; Tom was totally open to me having a "boyfriend" after I told him I had been "dating" a black man while we were separated.
He was reluctant, but we worked it out because he was never sure if I was going to leave him or not. After my affair with my first BF was over, Tom confessed that he thought I would leave him, if he didn't let me have the affair with my lover. As obsessed as I was at the beginning, he may have been right! I'm glad we didn't ever have to test that...
Some things he was willing, other things he had to be coaxed into being part of.
He usually watched, but after awhile I convinced my lover, Byron that I wanted some alone time with him. He told Tom to leave the room and close the door.
At first, when he would be over for the night, we would all sleep in the same bed, but sometimes I would tell him he had to sleep in the guest room.
With my second BF, who was a little more dominant, Tom ended up doing several things he wasn't excited about.
On my birthday, Tom sucked his first dick, because he knew it would turn me on. He didn't really want to do it, but did it because he knew it would turn me on. What he struggled with is how much he liked doing it - but he didn't confess that to me until later.
About 7 years ago I met a guy who I started flirting with. A black business man in town. I was just head-over-heels about this guy he is SO handsome and a very muscular and just that alpha male presence that makes me quiver!
Tom met him and hated him. Begged me not to pursue anything with him. They had a mutual dislike for each other.
He knew that Tom didn't want him to do anything with me, but he also knew that I would do just about anything to be with him.
He came to our office and we did a business deal with him one day.
Part of the deal was me giving him a blowjob, right there in the office in front of Tom.
I couldn't have been happier, but Tom was so mad he was red in the face.
We made the deal! It was one of the most erotic moments I've ever experienced in my life! He spent the entire time telling Tom how good it felt to have me sucking his dick.
I don't know if that is like your experiences, but it sounds like a similar situation.