Although my husband "can be" amazing in bed, and he is, he still likes to think that because he has a small penis that he is useless. And that really pisses me off! My husband may only be 4.5" long when he is erect, but he is pretty thick. My husband may not be as thick as my toys are, But he isn't pencil thin either. I will admit that when I saw my husband's penis the first time I wondered if he could ever please me. And when I haven't had another man, he feels incredible. He is even better once I have been with other men. I just really like how he feels in me. Our live-in is huge compared to my husband, and our live-in has no problem getting an erection. Our live-in is hard more often than not, whereas my husband has to really work at getting hard. My husband has to masturbate to get hard, and it takes sometimes several minutes for him to get erect. My husband recently convinced me to order him a cock cage like the one pictured below . . . At first I really didn't want to buy it for him, but now I am glad I did. Last night we went to the adult theater we always go to on our Friday night date nights. Although it was raining cats and dogs, the theater was packed with men. I was impressed at how many men had come out in the rain and excited that I was going to have sex with every one of them. Of course all of the men had larger cocks than my husband's, and the age variety was good, too. I like going to the adult theater because the men there are aggressive. They make things happen. That is something my husband really doesn't do. Last night we got to the theater around 9:30PM and we stayed until close to 3:AM. Usually my husband is by my side either holding my hand or my legs open. Last night my husband spent most of the evening sucking this one guy. Ocassionally I would glance over at my husband and he seemed very intent on spending the entire evening with this man's cock in his mouth. For a time I lost track of what was going on because I had men in my pussy, ass and mouth at the same time. When I had the chance to look over again at my husband he was riding the other man's cock, sitting facing away from him. My husband's penis was soft and almost invisible because it was all shrivelled up. My husband doesn't get hard when he is getting fucked or riding another man. So, I understood that, but I saw hm differently last night. I pretty much saw my husband as dickless. My husband has never, and never will say no to me. And sometimes I wish that he would. And last night I saw that he won't say no to anyone else, either. I have met and spoken with women who have had sex with my husband. He lived with one girl years ago. My husband was 35 and the girl was 21. She said he was the best lover she had ever had. And this was just a couple of years ago that I spoke with her. She said that my husband is the best she has ever had, and since they broke up she has been with more men than she can count. My husband's ex-wife has told me countless times that although she and my husband rarely had sex, he was the best she'd had. What she hated most was that he always apologized for his performance, that she said was more than what she needed. My husband's ex-wife is a lot like me in the fact that, in her marriage to my husband, she had sex with other men on a daily basis, often times with several men. And in the end, her favorite sex was the sex she had with my husband, when they did have sex. My husband's ex-wife says that when they have sex, now, that it reminds her of the good times they had together. My husband's ex says that she enjoyed, and still enjoys, sex with other men, but the sex she wanted was sex with my husband, who at the time was her husband. I also met the woman my husband was going to marry before he met his ex. She is a gorgeous woman. She said that she had sex with other men, often, when she and my husband dated, yet the sex she wanted and enjoyed most was with my husband. She, too, admitted that all of the other men had bigger cocks than my husband has, but she liked how he felt and how he moved his hips and how passionate he was. Sadly, I have not experienced that same passion from/with him. A few years back I got to meet another woman who had been in-love with my husband, and still is. She and my husband had sex only once, after her mother passed. And to this day she recounts how amazing a lover my husband was. This woman agreed that even when they had sex, just out of high school, that my husband wanted to watch her have sex with other men, and she let him. A friend of mine, who I had known for almost twenty years at the time, had sex with my husband a few years back, and to this day she talks about how amazing he was, and how he made her feel like no other man has. She still envies me because my husband has the ability to, when he really wants to, stay hard for very long lengths of time, and can even stay hard after he cums. Sadly, I have never experienced that, with my husband, either. My mother-in-law told me a long time ago that she encouraged my husband's best friend, when they were growing up, to have sex with the girls my husband dated, and he fucked every one of them. My mother -in-law told me that she felt sorry for the girls that my husband dated, because my husband has always had a very small penis. My mother-in-law has told me time and again that I am very lucky to have had men live with us, like our current live-in. She says that my husband may be a good man, but sex should be reserved for men who are better equipped for sex. My mother-in-law says that she raised my husband to respect women and to see them as flowers, petite, fragile and in need of care. My mother-in-law says that she rasied my husband to be a gentleman, not a sex fiend. My mother-in-law also told me that when my husband dated other boys, when he was in junior high and early in high school, that she felt my husband was happiest, yet she also encouraged my husband to date girls, so that his best friend could get sex, too. My mother-in-law told me that my husband's best friend was overweight and had trouble dating, although he was very well hung, and by my husband dating girls it made it easier for my husband's friend to get laid. She added that the fact that my husband,even at that age, liked to watch helped. I feel it is my mother-in-law's fault that my husband is the way that he is today, dickless. And my husband is proud that he is small, which I still have trouble understanding. My husband likes it when I tell others that he is small, and cums quickly, which really isn't true. My husband does have stamina, sometimes too much stamina. And I really like his dick size. I think what upsets me the most is that my husband never asks me for sex, but he is always more than happy to ask other men to fuck me, or ask me to fuck other men. There are times when I would like to have just me and my husband time, when I am not fucking other men. I know Friday nights and Sunday mornings are reserved for gang bangs, and at night, when I go to bed, it is me and our live-in's time, but there are other times when me and my husband could have sex. The problem is that our live-in has so many friends and family members, and they have friends and family members, and I also have other lovers I see pretty regularly, that I really don't have the time that I would like to spend with my husband, alone. If my husband would ask me for sex, or time alone, not with him watching me fuck someone else, I would make time for him and I to have sex, but that never happens. Usually when I want sex with my husband I end up fucking someone else, even when just me and my husband go out, alone, together. The last few times we had date nights, just me and my husband, I ended up fucking someone else. I'm not saying that the sex I had with other men was not good, but I wanted sex with my husband and it didn't happen, like usual. When we go out, me and my husband, and I state to him that I find another man attractive, he, more often than not, makes it happen. He gets me laid by another man. I'm not saying that I don't love the sex I have with other men, but when I have sex with other men, and what I wanted was sex with my husband, it's not the same as it could be. When we go out my husband has me wear one of his tank tops as a dress, and nothing under it. I admit it makes me feel sexy, and it gets me laid a lot, but I often wish that me dressing that way turned my husband on, not that it turned him on because me dressing that was was going to get me laid by someone else. It's sad that last night, while numerous men took turns with me, all I could think about was how much I hated my husband for sucking and fucking this other guy. Yes. I loved the sex I got last night with all of the men at the theater, but I would have been just as happy to have sex with my husband before me and our live-in made love before falling asleep together. I also wish that my husband would go down on me as often as he goes down on our live-in. Our live-in gets more sex from my husband than I do. I, too often, wish that my husband would go down on me in the shower like his does with our live-in. My husband does anything I tell him to do, but not often what I really want him to do. Yes, last night I was angry because my husband was doing what he wanted to do, when I would have preferred him by my side holding my hand or holding my legs apart. I don't think I would have been as angry had my husband been more attentive to me last night. My husband doesn't tell me how good I feel when we fuck, but when we got home last night, after me and our live-in made love, he told our live-in how much he loved his cock and how much it fills me. When I asked my husband, a long time ago, what he thought of while he masturbated, when trying to get hard for me, he showed me the pictures below . . . When I asked him what he'd prefer, he told me the last picture. When I asked him why, he said, "Because she has it all, beautiful eyes, nice tits, an amazing body and a gorgeous cock." He has never asked how that made me feel. And that hurts. I can never be what my husband wants and needs, like the picture above. And that hurts, too. If I could grow a cock like the one above, and look as good as she does, I would. Maybe my husband would want me more often, or at least some, more than he does now. My husband is dickless! And when we get the cock cage we ordered, I will put it in him and never take it off. I fuck a lot of guys, mostly because I know it pleases my husband. Well, now it is all about me!