all my bitchiness gone. all my uppitty, my haughty, vanity, racism, holier/classier-than-thou attitude and eminence gone. . . tamed...shattered...just a helpless kitten weakly weeping and whimpering, ''ohhh daddy, Oh! daaAadyee. i am so in love with you.''. . . . . . . . . . lost to men of my own race.