I'm a white male who has had a cuckold fetish for years. When I go to this site, I feel a massive rush, and it keeps me coming back again and again. But alongside it, I feel conflict within myself.
The top layer of this is the numbness from the pics and videos, the deepening feeling of total inferiority, and the dependence on this fetish to make me happy. Beneath them lies low self-esteem, anger, loneliness, and more. These things have never been dealt with, and instead I've been using cuckolding as a band-aid to cover them.
For example, I've never gotten out of my head enough to really enjoy or succeed (e.g., making the girl cum at least once) at vaginal sex. Instead, I've gotten stuck in self-consciousness, fear of premature ejaculation, and a lack of libido due to porn use. These issues have led to premature ejaculation and erectile dysfunction. Out of my repeated struggles in the bedroom, I've come to associate pain with vaginal sex and developed feelings of inferiority and hopelessness when I see how bulls have sex. So when I want to pleasure my girl, I feel the only easy way to do it is with my tongue (because it's not as finicky as the penis when under stress), and that I'll have to leave the real fucking to the bulls.
Perhaps I would really rather be more like a bull: confident, "alpha", etc. Or perhaps I would prefer to be some other way that doesn't conform to that image. But I've never given myself a chance to figure this out! I've never been calm and open enough during sex to really enjoy it and understand my sexual desires.
And I wonder, how many of you "cucks" have some of the same issues going on? Perhaps there are those of you who treat the whole thing as a game, and are really at peace with themselves. But I see a lot of my own negativity reflected in the posts in these forums. There are stories about men becoming feminized, posts about total BBC superiority, etc., and those are just the easy ones to spot. How many of us would *actually* want our significant other to fuck black guys, when we come from a place of calm and love?
It seems like the solution is to understand the different aspects of your cuckold habits and their roots, and take a step back from them. Can you go 30 days without porn and cuckold play? Can you have sex as you really want to have it, free of stress? Can you accept your body and the size of your penis? If you can't deal with your fundamental emotional issues, then you have no idea whether or not you really want to be a cuckold. And for the ladies who humiliate their husbands, and the bulls who go along with cuckold blowjobs, etc., maybe there are some things to think about, too.
I'm not judging anyone as immoral. I'm just saying, I know it will make me happier to take a step back, and I think it may for you too.
Don't end up like the people in this thread: http://www.cuckoldplace.com/8_66658_1.html
The top layer of this is the numbness from the pics and videos, the deepening feeling of total inferiority, and the dependence on this fetish to make me happy. Beneath them lies low self-esteem, anger, loneliness, and more. These things have never been dealt with, and instead I've been using cuckolding as a band-aid to cover them.
For example, I've never gotten out of my head enough to really enjoy or succeed (e.g., making the girl cum at least once) at vaginal sex. Instead, I've gotten stuck in self-consciousness, fear of premature ejaculation, and a lack of libido due to porn use. These issues have led to premature ejaculation and erectile dysfunction. Out of my repeated struggles in the bedroom, I've come to associate pain with vaginal sex and developed feelings of inferiority and hopelessness when I see how bulls have sex. So when I want to pleasure my girl, I feel the only easy way to do it is with my tongue (because it's not as finicky as the penis when under stress), and that I'll have to leave the real fucking to the bulls.
Perhaps I would really rather be more like a bull: confident, "alpha", etc. Or perhaps I would prefer to be some other way that doesn't conform to that image. But I've never given myself a chance to figure this out! I've never been calm and open enough during sex to really enjoy it and understand my sexual desires.
And I wonder, how many of you "cucks" have some of the same issues going on? Perhaps there are those of you who treat the whole thing as a game, and are really at peace with themselves. But I see a lot of my own negativity reflected in the posts in these forums. There are stories about men becoming feminized, posts about total BBC superiority, etc., and those are just the easy ones to spot. How many of us would *actually* want our significant other to fuck black guys, when we come from a place of calm and love?
It seems like the solution is to understand the different aspects of your cuckold habits and their roots, and take a step back from them. Can you go 30 days without porn and cuckold play? Can you have sex as you really want to have it, free of stress? Can you accept your body and the size of your penis? If you can't deal with your fundamental emotional issues, then you have no idea whether or not you really want to be a cuckold. And for the ladies who humiliate their husbands, and the bulls who go along with cuckold blowjobs, etc., maybe there are some things to think about, too.
I'm not judging anyone as immoral. I'm just saying, I know it will make me happier to take a step back, and I think it may for you too.
Don't end up like the people in this thread: http://www.cuckoldplace.com/8_66658_1.html
