Hey everyone, I am a very recent emerging cuck, at least I would like to think so and I wanted to give my ideas and thoughts to my experiences thus far in the hope that maybe lurkers who check it out might get some info and of course members might enjoy the read.
Up until recently; far less than 2 months, I never really knew why I enjoyed the idea of Interracial cuckolding, I didn't even know if it was fantasy or if I would enjoy the reality, it's been quite the cocktail of thoughts and emotions surrounding it. Well I ended up throwing together a tumblr for random porn purposes (why not?) and creating captions, over time people reached out to talk and eventually via a channel there I was fortunate enough to speak to a couple of women, one who directed me here actually.
She is a Queen of Spades with tattoos and has what appears to be quite the vast experience with the lifestyle, she became curious by my name (Fallen Alpha) and wanted to chat about myself and my thoughts, this was actually the first time I ever got to have a real chat about such thoughts, sure horny people, people high off porn and such wanted to talk to me about it but I am not interested in helping them get off. This was a very real chat, over a period of a few weeks now which lead to me realize I really wasn't sure what it was that attracted me to this, no idea.
We discussed the idea of myself being an "alpha" (not a huge fan of the word but it's easier to get the point across by using it) how a guy who used to turn his gfs into pets would end up in such a situation. What changed?
The answer I found, was nothing. I can still do that, still chat with a woman, with submissive tendencies and desires, then toy with them, I feel comfortable doing so, there's a woman in the next city over who enjoys flirting with me because she likes that side of me. This really got me thinking, why I love the idea of being a cuck and well a cuck to someone within an interracial setting.
At the same time I found myself very attracted to this woman, we don't flirt really. She's really only interested in black men but would adore a white cuck and this was really making my mind race until it finally hit me (funnily enough I had an epiphany during a business meeting) I enjoyed the hopelessness aspect of it, allow me to explain.
I am over 6foot, healthy, successful and a pretty normal guy, size wise I am above average, open minded and never really had complaints, however with a woman who prefers black men this is sort of negated, all my strengths and knowledge becomes almost irrelevant, I told the woman about this, we discussed it and as we did it hit me much more than anything else, I just felt right about it like 2 puzzle pieces fitting together. I truly felt like I found something that had been missing for a long time.
I still have quite a bit of what I am told is "cuck fear" and I do, I'm scared. I'm scared that one day I might be in that position, in that relationship and I fear moving forward, though I want to; it's why I'm typing this, I fear how much I'll love it, I fear embracing a cuckold lifestyle and relationship with a woman I can love and be with. I know inside that this is something I feel passionate about, that truly I want to discuss this, to meet people and eventually experience it and I know in order to do that I must push forward, overcome the fear and with luck find the right woman for me so I can finally be myself completely.
I advise any one who has doubts, who has the fear and questions to reach out to others, to say hello. To talk, read and keep off the porn a bit, stay clear minded when you talk to others, there are genuine people out there, people who care about the lifestyle, about the community and they can be very very welcoming.
Thanks for reading, I know it was no doubt mostly ramblings.
Up until recently; far less than 2 months, I never really knew why I enjoyed the idea of Interracial cuckolding, I didn't even know if it was fantasy or if I would enjoy the reality, it's been quite the cocktail of thoughts and emotions surrounding it. Well I ended up throwing together a tumblr for random porn purposes (why not?) and creating captions, over time people reached out to talk and eventually via a channel there I was fortunate enough to speak to a couple of women, one who directed me here actually.
She is a Queen of Spades with tattoos and has what appears to be quite the vast experience with the lifestyle, she became curious by my name (Fallen Alpha) and wanted to chat about myself and my thoughts, this was actually the first time I ever got to have a real chat about such thoughts, sure horny people, people high off porn and such wanted to talk to me about it but I am not interested in helping them get off. This was a very real chat, over a period of a few weeks now which lead to me realize I really wasn't sure what it was that attracted me to this, no idea.
We discussed the idea of myself being an "alpha" (not a huge fan of the word but it's easier to get the point across by using it) how a guy who used to turn his gfs into pets would end up in such a situation. What changed?
The answer I found, was nothing. I can still do that, still chat with a woman, with submissive tendencies and desires, then toy with them, I feel comfortable doing so, there's a woman in the next city over who enjoys flirting with me because she likes that side of me. This really got me thinking, why I love the idea of being a cuck and well a cuck to someone within an interracial setting.
At the same time I found myself very attracted to this woman, we don't flirt really. She's really only interested in black men but would adore a white cuck and this was really making my mind race until it finally hit me (funnily enough I had an epiphany during a business meeting) I enjoyed the hopelessness aspect of it, allow me to explain.
I am over 6foot, healthy, successful and a pretty normal guy, size wise I am above average, open minded and never really had complaints, however with a woman who prefers black men this is sort of negated, all my strengths and knowledge becomes almost irrelevant, I told the woman about this, we discussed it and as we did it hit me much more than anything else, I just felt right about it like 2 puzzle pieces fitting together. I truly felt like I found something that had been missing for a long time.
I still have quite a bit of what I am told is "cuck fear" and I do, I'm scared. I'm scared that one day I might be in that position, in that relationship and I fear moving forward, though I want to; it's why I'm typing this, I fear how much I'll love it, I fear embracing a cuckold lifestyle and relationship with a woman I can love and be with. I know inside that this is something I feel passionate about, that truly I want to discuss this, to meet people and eventually experience it and I know in order to do that I must push forward, overcome the fear and with luck find the right woman for me so I can finally be myself completely.
I advise any one who has doubts, who has the fear and questions to reach out to others, to say hello. To talk, read and keep off the porn a bit, stay clear minded when you talk to others, there are genuine people out there, people who care about the lifestyle, about the community and they can be very very welcoming.
Thanks for reading, I know it was no doubt mostly ramblings.
