I don't know, it appears he checks in from time to time ... let's see what his status is ...
wishingpeach ... some of us were wondering how your situation has worked out. Do you care to give us an update to your thread?
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sure why not. i come on here for messages/friends but overall im pretty busy with life and for a while i was satisfied by a steady bbc so didn't come on here a lot. there's too much to the story so i'll try to make it short
basically i started talking to some guys online a couple months after OP, got the courage to cam with some i felt comfortable with, but never built the courage to make something happen. we met a couple that had a regular bbc on the side in vegas, they said he had serviced the wife for years and he was a gentleman so that kind of eased the anxiety. we met up, had a fantastic time. we went home, hubby was happy i was happy with the experience, it was nice and hubby wanted me to try more bbc but i was only okay with it if it was something steady, not a lot of partners, so a bbc nearby was happy to be exclusive with me. that went on for a month. hubby loved it, he would get VMs, naughty pictures, and videos at work if he wasn't present lol it was an addictive feeling actually i would get the best sex i've ever had with no drama and i could make hubby even happier at the same time.
well that bbc found his soulmate and we had to cut ties. i wasn't emotionally attached but i missed the experience and exclusivity of someone i could trust being with me and only me. so i looked for another steady bbc, but this time i was the one to suggest we try something new. i wanted more of a longterm boyfriend on the side, main reason being that i wanted to keep enjoying bbc, but only with someone that i can trust and would feel at ease with. i was shocked that he was very open and supportive of the idea. he agreed a more discreet approach was the smart idea, and of course was excited to see new material lol. i promised hubby i would not ever neglect him.
i found the bbc, and for a couple of months it was absolute *******. on call, whenever i had my urges he was there, and it was very often. we got pretty wild lol sex at our place, meet up at his place, meetup at his work, the backyard, motels, parking lots, sometimes the three of us would goto the bar or a club, hubby would be the dd for the night and after we'd leave, we'd jump in the back seat ******* and just fuck for hours while hubby drove. my bf was very much into dogging and exhibition which i was definitely not into, but twice we found open areas that had no people for miles and have a good time there.
honestly he was amazing bf was happy to be exclusive, hubby was shockingly secure, and I felt I had finally found the perfect balance and it was euphoric i felt like i was the luckiest person ever. i could have done that for the rest of my life
then the bf got really damn crazy. was making demands from me. didn't like i was talking to bbcs on this site and sending them pics. 'cause you know im shy but once i start flirting i cant stop lol. i agreed. and its just over the internet, i never wanted to meet anyone from here anyway. was afraid of becoming just another hot wife story or something. I would also occasionally sleep over his place for the night, he wanted me to stay over on the weekends, which I can't do I live a busy life
but hubby wanted to be supportive and didn't want me to have to lose the security i had, so he made arrangements so i can stay over the weekends. at first even that turned out to be not so bad, but at the same time, I felt bad for hubby you know? he would still get lots of material from us of course but i just didn't spend time with him much before, and now I never saw him. the guilt was tearing me apart, my bf was getting more controlling every day and he was going insane, i no longer trusted him. i mean the one that should be jealous should my husband for fuck's sake and he ended up getting the short end of the stick
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one thing i forgot to mention too, unless he was at work or it was late in the night, hubby was present all the time. and we had fun the three of us had good chemistry when we were together, laughing, joking, taking awkward pictures. sometimes hubby would join and it would turn into a threesome which meant i would be very sore the next day because they both had insane sex drives lol but i loved pleasing the two men that i was intimate with. but of course he got jealous and ruined everything hahaha)
i don't want to go into detail but i ended it. and it ended in disaster. let's just say that in the end, the steps we took to be discrete all those months were for nothing. at that point i was done with the lifestyle. i didn't want it anymore. hubby was very supportive as always and understood, and we haven't been active or looking to try again.
overall i feel satisfied. it was an experience and a life style i got to be a part of. hubby and i are closer than we have ever been and i am happy we have our bond. for now i dont want to be in the lifestyle. im sure in the distant future i will open up to it again. but for now, when we do miss it, we have porn, our videos, role playing or my dildos lol which is good enough.
that was long. i could probably write a book about the time in my life.