whiteboisteven
Male
I'm a white guy who is into interracial cuckolding but I also enjoy other fetishes as usually related to femdom. Sexually confident and assertive women really turn me on, and I'll be honest, it took me some time to come to terms with it. At first my sexuality was something I struggled with since I was told that men are suppose to be dominant and the leaders in a relationship. My dad was also an angry misogynist who was abusive towards women. It's funny because when my mom finally left him after he beat her really badly she started seeing black guys and often times I could hear her having sex with them through the walls of my house. Would it be too shameful to admit I would jerk off sometimes while this was going on?
I did go through a period where I tried to repress my desires and that just made me miserable. Probably the most shameful thing for me to admit is that I would sometimes go onto misogynistic and racists message boards and write some really nasty, angry, messed up garbage. It was usually after I came while watching femdom or interracial porn and then I would feel a moment of shame and guilt where I would try to erase it by venting and lashing out on forums that supported bigotry and hatred.
That was my angry white guy stage which I'm not sure if anybody else here ever went through that. But I figure I mention it in case there is and perhaps we could have a discussion on that experience and how to get through it. How to erase the feelings of sexual shame and guilt that I honestly believe drive a lot of men to hateful right wing ideology. What helped me the most was removing myself from the toxic voices that were trying to tell me what a "real man" is and finding more progressive sex positive voices to listen to that gave me an alternative to masculinity.
There is nothing wrong or shameful with being a cuck or liking strong dominant women. The only real "beta" is the guy who listens to what a self-proclaimed "alpha" says a "real man" is.
I did go through a period where I tried to repress my desires and that just made me miserable. Probably the most shameful thing for me to admit is that I would sometimes go onto misogynistic and racists message boards and write some really nasty, angry, messed up garbage. It was usually after I came while watching femdom or interracial porn and then I would feel a moment of shame and guilt where I would try to erase it by venting and lashing out on forums that supported bigotry and hatred.
That was my angry white guy stage which I'm not sure if anybody else here ever went through that. But I figure I mention it in case there is and perhaps we could have a discussion on that experience and how to get through it. How to erase the feelings of sexual shame and guilt that I honestly believe drive a lot of men to hateful right wing ideology. What helped me the most was removing myself from the toxic voices that were trying to tell me what a "real man" is and finding more progressive sex positive voices to listen to that gave me an alternative to masculinity.
There is nothing wrong or shameful with being a cuck or liking strong dominant women. The only real "beta" is the guy who listens to what a self-proclaimed "alpha" says a "real man" is.
