is cuckolding a contradiction?

[kenny1999]

I cannot deny that the idea of cuckolding or being locked in chastity is a great turn-on for me. However, as time passes by, in between the pleasures, there are also pain and frustration. You won't feel aroused at anytime for 7-24. How would you deal with the painful time?

I always masturbate while imagining that I am being locked in chastity, being denied and humiliated by a hot wife and her lover, I would even imagine that a chastity device is going to
lock up my dick forever and the turn-on would be more intense.

Before jerking off, I always hope to have a Mistress or slut wife who will cuckold me and keep me in chastity and I serve her by eating her pussy or drinking her pee.

After jerking off, I always think that cuckolding and wearing chastity is so stupid and painful that
I will never do it in real life.

In real life I once tried to lock myself in chastity for a week, it was very difficult and frustrating, I couldn't sleep well, eat well, pee well. My daily work was also largely affected. At the end of the week I jerked off vigorously and I was very much relieved. At that moment, I thought I was so stupid to spend the week in chastity and I swear that I am not going to do this again. Few days after, I locked up myself again


How do you overcome the contradiction, frustration and balance in life

 

[Alice Red]

Everything take time. Some white men are more other less affected by being chastised. It seems that you are the latter. I guess give yourself time, seek help from your wife. Make smaller steps.