This is a real life experience of mine, not a fantasy story (and please excuse, it is not even directly about sex, well, sort of 
).
i recently had a conversation with a single twenty-nine year-old white Woman, both of us were a bit dr.u.nk at that point, and we were casually touching the subject of sexual turn-ons. Once i mentioned porn she admitted to watching it, even enjoying it "a lot" (her words). And after i somewhat nervously opened up about my "favorite category" she seemed a bit surprised at first but jumped on it rather quickly.
She told me that she has always been strongly attracted to Black men without actually being able to explain why. (i queried her about that but without success. ) So i asked her the obvious question: "All fantasy aside, have you ever had sex with a Black man?" - She confirmed. (When she did i could feel a subtle twitch in my penile glans and my heart skipped a beat. 
) i am not going into detail here about how she described the experience but the bottom line was it was "eye-opening". i can recall her at one point saying, "It was like losing my virginity all over again." - So you get an idea of her "mindset".
One thing that i find rather impressing is that she also mentioned how that experience had changed her attraction toward men. She told me that she has never been seeking any sexual connection or encounter with a male who is not a Black man, going forward from that first "blackened" experience of hers. She even said, she never gave it a thought, not once. Not sure how to better express it other than all of her sexual mind was kind of conditioned and solely set on Black men ever since her first and the many that would follow.
The strange thing is: when i asked her if she would ever consider or could imagine having sex with a non-black male again her surprising response was "Sure." It all seemed so contradictory and didn't make sense to me at all in that moment.
We went on with our convo and, checking the time on my phone, i noticed that we had been talking for more than two hours in total. It was a pretty wild conversation so i deem it impossible to share all the details here.
Just so much... We told each other a few things of our sexual pasts and in that context i brought up swinging and then, more specifically, wifesharing. She seemed intrigued but also opened up about her own previous swinging - who would have thought! She told me that throughout her years in college she had had a phase in which she found herself in a horny state more often than not and at one point decided to give swinging a try as a (more convenient?) alternative to picking up boys from pubs.
That was when she mentioned having played with other girls as well, not only guys, even though she insisted not being sexually attracted to Women. i was wondering... how can anybody have sex with someone they are not attracted to?
She explained that she thought it was sort of expected of her since a lot of the couples attending the club had bisexual wives or girlfriends and she was attending as a single female. It had all started off with a couple she found the boyfriend was hot and the girlfriend had taken her by the hand and invited to bi-play so she gave in and accepted as a way to get to the boyfriend which she said had worked as intended. 
The three of them ended up mingling in a hot FFM and they became her favorite couple to play with. Not that it would be of importance here but the couple was both whites and it was years before her initial "blackening".
She would entertain lesbian sex in the club more often but, as she said, more as a warm-up and to put on a show and turn on the guys than for her own sexual pleasure from it. "But wasn't that sexually pleasurable for you at all?", i showed my interest. She admitted that she once even had an orgasm from eating pussy because the other Woman was so into it, squirming underneath her, which had been so arousing for her in return that it pushed her over the edge. - "Then you are bisexual.", i insisted.
But she shook her head and said, "See. I have always admired female beauty as something esthetic so I am not turned-off by that, it's just not anything sexual. So I am not sexually attracted to women. I never fantasize about sex with a woman. But when I am at it I can still enjoy it." After a short pause she added, "You can call me 'bi-flexible', if you wish. Perhaps that's what best describes it." The second following that statement strangely her facial expression froze still as if to say 'Eureka!'
"Perhaps that's also a good explanation of my earlier statement when I said, I could still imagine having sex with a white man. I had sex with white boys before. Which was good for the most part. A few of the best memories I have created involve white guys and I do not want to miss those. So I know. But also I am not necessarily sexually attracted to them. Not anymore. Not since my first Black man, oh that guy was so...". She pinched her arm as not to drift away, drooling over her memory. Having herself contained she continued, "There is truly no comparison! Lemme say this: just like I am not sexually attracted to a woman I am not to a white man. Been there, done that. So I know it could still be joyful, if I would. I just don't see myself in that position. Not anymore. - If that makes sense. - In the end I never find myself fantasizing about white men anyways. Hasn't happened in years." She shrug her shoulders.
i was thoughtful for awhile with my eyes on the ground. And when I looked up again our eyes locked and all of a sudden the both of us couldn't help but burst out laughing with tears. We were joking around a bit and she brought up a few good terms when comparing how she felt around white and Black men, respectively. (i'll put those in quote-marks.) She said, she viewed white males as her "peers" with not much of a difference to her lady friends while whenever she sees a Black man it's like an "alarm bell ringing" and she cannot help but immediately think of him as a "potential mating partner". It would be like a "natural urge" hard to suppress or resist.
Finally i came up with ideas of how to best describe her sexuality. i said, neither "bi-curious" nor "hetero-flexible" would be well-suiting terms in her case. i suggested something stupid along the lines of
"heteronegrosexual with a subtle bi-flexibility toward females and non-black males."
But she responded well to that and said, "Wow. You are good with words. I need to write that one down. I can actually think of adopting that for my social network profiles."
Also we jokingly found words that would describe my own sexuality well:
"heterosexual with a strong voyeuristic heteronegrophallophilia." - Or simply say, "It's complicated."
Oh man!, i sooo wished she was more than a tourist leaving the next day. If only she was, i would definitely have done my very best to make a connection with her and see if we make a good match outside the bedroom too because i believe her and me would have been a perfect match, sexually.
Anyway... the point i am trying to make is: The labels "straight", "gay" and "bi" alone are not sufficient to describe each and every sexuality that actually exists! (Sometimes we need to make up our own terms when needed, it seems. )
Can anybody relate?? TY
).i recently had a conversation with a single twenty-nine year-old white Woman, both of us were a bit dr.u.nk at that point, and we were casually touching the subject of sexual turn-ons. Once i mentioned porn she admitted to watching it, even enjoying it "a lot" (her words). And after i somewhat nervously opened up about my "favorite category" she seemed a bit surprised at first but jumped on it rather quickly.
She told me that she has always been strongly attracted to Black men without actually being able to explain why. (i queried her about that but without success.
) So i asked her the obvious question: "All fantasy aside, have you ever had sex with a Black man?" - She confirmed. (When she did i could feel a subtle twitch in my penile glans and my heart skipped a beat. ) i am not going into detail here about how she described the experience but the bottom line was it was "eye-opening". i can recall her at one point saying, "It was like losing my virginity all over again." - So you get an idea of her "mindset". One thing that i find rather impressing is that she also mentioned how that experience had changed her attraction toward men. She told me that she has never been seeking any sexual connection or encounter with a male who is not a Black man, going forward from that first "blackened" experience of hers. She even said, she never gave it a thought, not once. Not sure how to better express it other than all of her sexual mind was kind of conditioned and solely set on Black men ever since her first and the many that would follow.
The strange thing is: when i asked her if she would ever consider or could imagine having sex with a non-black male again her surprising response was "Sure." It all seemed so contradictory and didn't make sense to me at all in that moment.
We went on with our convo and, checking the time on my phone, i noticed that we had been talking for more than two hours in total. It was a pretty wild conversation so i deem it impossible to share all the details here.Just so much... We told each other a few things of our sexual pasts and in that context i brought up swinging and then, more specifically, wifesharing. She seemed intrigued but also opened up about her own previous swinging - who would have thought!
She told me that throughout her years in college she had had a phase in which she found herself in a horny state more often than not and at one point decided to give swinging a try as a (more convenient?) alternative to picking up boys from pubs.That was when she mentioned having played with other girls as well, not only guys, even though she insisted not being sexually attracted to Women. i was wondering... how can anybody have sex with someone they are not attracted to?
She explained that she thought it was sort of expected of her since a lot of the couples attending the club had bisexual wives or girlfriends and she was attending as a single female. It had all started off with a couple she found the boyfriend was hot and the girlfriend had taken her by the hand and invited to bi-play so she gave in and accepted as a way to get to the boyfriend which she said had worked as intended. The three of them ended up mingling in a hot FFM and they became her favorite couple to play with. Not that it would be of importance here but the couple was both whites and it was years before her initial "blackening".She would entertain lesbian sex in the club more often but, as she said, more as a warm-up and to put on a show and turn on the guys than for her own sexual pleasure from it. "But wasn't that sexually pleasurable for you at all?", i showed my interest. She admitted that she once even had an orgasm from eating pussy because the other Woman was so into it, squirming underneath her, which had been so arousing for her in return that it pushed her over the edge. - "Then you are bisexual.", i insisted.
But she shook her head and said, "See. I have always admired female beauty as something esthetic so I am not turned-off by that, it's just not anything sexual. So I am not sexually attracted to women. I never fantasize about sex with a woman. But when I am at it I can still enjoy it." After a short pause she added, "You can call me 'bi-flexible', if you wish. Perhaps that's what best describes it." The second following that statement strangely her facial expression froze still as if to say 'Eureka!'
"Perhaps that's also a good explanation of my earlier statement when I said, I could still imagine having sex with a white man. I had sex with white boys before. Which was good for the most part. A few of the best memories I have created involve white guys and I do not want to miss those. So I know. But also I am not necessarily sexually attracted to them. Not anymore. Not since my first Black man, oh that guy was so...". She pinched her arm as not to drift away, drooling over her memory. Having herself contained she continued, "There is truly no comparison! Lemme say this: just like I am not sexually attracted to a woman I am not to a white man. Been there, done that. So I know it could still be joyful, if I would. I just don't see myself in that position. Not anymore. - If that makes sense. - In the end I never find myself fantasizing about white men anyways. Hasn't happened in years." She shrug her shoulders.
i was thoughtful for awhile with my eyes on the ground. And when I looked up again our eyes locked and all of a sudden the both of us couldn't help but burst out laughing with tears. We were joking around a bit and she brought up a few good terms when comparing how she felt around white and Black men, respectively. (i'll put those in quote-marks.) She said, she viewed white males as her "peers" with not much of a difference to her lady friends while whenever she sees a Black man it's like an "alarm bell ringing" and she cannot help but immediately think of him as a "potential mating partner". It would be like a "natural urge" hard to suppress or resist.
Finally i came up with ideas of how to best describe her sexuality. i said, neither "bi-curious" nor "hetero-flexible" would be well-suiting terms in her case. i suggested something stupid along the lines of
"heteronegrosexual with a subtle bi-flexibility toward females and non-black males."
But she responded well to that and said, "Wow. You are good with words. I need to write that one down. I can actually think of adopting that for my social network profiles."
Also we jokingly found words that would describe my own sexuality well:
"heterosexual with a strong voyeuristic heteronegrophallophilia." - Or simply say, "It's complicated."
Oh man!, i sooo wished she was more than a tourist leaving the next day. If only she was, i would definitely have done my very best to make a connection with her and see if we make a good match outside the bedroom too because i believe her and me would have been a perfect match, sexually.
Anyway... the point i am trying to make is: The labels "straight", "gay" and "bi" alone are not sufficient to describe each and every sexuality that actually exists! (Sometimes we need to make up our own terms when needed, it seems.
)Can anybody relate?? TY
