My wife was a virgin when we started dating. The first time we had sex, she mounted me and sat down and my penis just slid all the way in, no resistance. She told me “it doesn’t feel like you’re all the way in.” I told her I was. A few min later she said “are you sure, it doesn’t feel like it” Afterwards I asked how it was and she said “it was ok, it just didn’t feel like you were pushing it all the way in me.” Over the next few times we had sex. I would notice that she enjoyed everything but when I put my penis in her. When I was licking her or fingering her, she would breath heavy and moan. When I was in her, she didn’t make a sound and looked bored. After we had sex maybe 5 times or so, she started getting really really into her hand jobs and giving me head. I would get so turned on and close to cumming and I’d ask her to stop or slow down because I was about to cum. She’d intensify her pace and make me spill my load. She’d apologize and say she was just so turned on and into it. A couple months later, I think we had only been having sex 2-3 months at the time, I asked her if she didn’t want my penis in her. I wasn’t sure if she was feeling guilty (because she had lost her virginity) or if she just didn’t like it. At first she tried to say that she liked it, she just gets into it and turned on jerking me off when I’m about to cum and wants to see it. But after talking a little more, she admitted she would try to make me cum before I had a chance to be in her because it didn’t do anything for her and it was frustrating because she could barely feel it and would get kind of turned off and liked it better when I ate her out and fingered her. She apologized several times and asked if I was mad at her. I assured her I wasn’t and wanted her to be pleased. I asked her if she wanted to try toys and she said that it might be fun.
So I bought a soft, lifelike feel sleeve. I went down on her and said I needed to be in her. She said “no baby, please just eat me out, I don’t want it in me” I pretty much begged until she gave in. I went to the bathroom and put the sleeve on and came out and pushed it into her without her knowing I was wearing it. “Ohhh, baby, you feel different.” I began pounding her pussy and heard her make sounds I hadn’t heard from her when my penis was in her by itself. She ended up cumming for the first time ever while being penetrated. After she said “baby! I don’t know why, but you felt bigger today.” I showed her the sleeve and was a little embarrassed but also excited. Over time, I noticed that the more fingers I put in her, the bigger the toy she had, the more she liked it. For awhile, she would put my penis in her for 2-3 min to warm up and get wet for her toys. Eventually that became less and less as my penis was no longer a warm up for her. I noticed after awhile that every time I asked to put my penis was in her, even if for only a few min, we wouldn’t have sex again for 7-10 days on average. When I stuck to my tongue, hands and toys, we were having sex 3-5x a week. Eventually I told her it was ok if we stopped using my penis in her because I know it’s too small for her. She said she didn’t mind as long as I didn’t ask too often because she wanted to make me feel good too. But I knew she was only saying that because she felt obligated. The fact that she says that, but when it happened, she’d be out of the mood for a week or more was the proof, even if she didn’t realize she was doing it. I told her that I wouldn’t put it in her anymore because nothing turned me on more than seeing her pleased. She was very happy and thanked me and said it would give her anxiety sometimes thinking she needed to let me in her to be a “good wife”. Last year I was in her a total of two times, once in March, once in April. Both times for maybe 3 min or so. In 2022, I was only in her 4-5 times total and I think the longest was maybe 5 min. I went from July 2022-March 2023 pussy free and again from April 2023- current pussy free. She told me this year she wants to try to keep me completely pussy free because our sex lives have gotten so much better since we stopped doing PIV sex. Now we have sex way more than before. This year already we’ve had sex every day but twice and a couple days we had sex multiple times. I like that she’s opened up more and is very honest about what turns her on and her needs. Before she would be too shy/embarrassed or worried she’d hurt my feelings to admit that she thinks about other guys in her, that she is a size queen, that she is a slut for big cock (her words), etc etc.
8/10 times after I take care of her, she jerks me off. Blow jobs are rare now, she said I’m too small and she’d give them to me more if I were bigger. She said she loves jerking me off tho because it’s fun and feels good in her hand and she likes to see me enjoy myself.
She thanks me almost every time after we have sex for being so understanding of her needs and knowing what she needs. She says it makes her feel closer to me. She’s asked me a few times if I were really ok with not being in her, and I told her it made me happy seeing how pleased she was when I’m not in her and I feel closer to her now than ever. She just smiles from ear to ear and tells me thank you and that she loves me so much.
, the marriage is over.
