Angelyn
Female
Guys, you can skip this post. There are no pictures here.
Girls, I’d like to share my feelings, so please read on and tell me what you think!
It’s a bit random, but that’s like me. I was watching a bad porn movie, skipped through it, then I watched a good porn movie and was again fixated throughout without skipping. Then I decided to post my reaction here and get some responses...
First I watched Zoe Voss in The Avengers XXX porn parody.
It’s been said before, but I do like Zoe Voss. Her body type is close to my own, and I firmly identify with her mixed race appearance. Zoe has plenty of scenes in beds with nice looking guys. I, too, want to be her and be gorgeous and get fucked by porn stars with nice bodies and good stamina. (Instead of winding up as I often do, with guys whom I’d had great conversations with, but turned out to be lacking in the stamina or imagination department and overweight to boot.)
That Avengers scene sucked so bad. Zoe kept her costume on all the time, her partner was the awesome Lex Steele and he stripped but poor Zoe was denied skin contact with Lex’s nice body, they had sex only through the crotchless part of Zoe’s costume and Lex came on that stupid costume.
WTF, sperm belongs either inside the lady, or on the lady. Not on a latex costume!
OK, I know not everyone’s tastes are the same. And I do know women who like cosplay sex or being totally covered in latex or some kind of artificial costume. However I don’t know anyone who actually likes being ‘distant’ from their man during sex. Most girls feel annoyed if there is not enough skin contact, as though the guy wants to stay a distance from us. Men can enjoy sex just having penises stimulated, but women need everything to be stimulated. The only time when it is cool to have sex with minimal skin contact, is when you’re doing a quickie in a public place and don’t want anyone else to notice. (Yes, I’ve had sex in a library before, so there was only contact between genitals and it was a great thrill all the same.)
I absolutely hate sex where I am isolated from the guy except for the crotchless part of my costume. It feels very mechanical.
Crotchless costumes of any kind are meant for foreplay. To give you guys access so that you can finger us in public places. I’ve had my share of being fingered at the movies, in crowded bars, in trains and stadiums, and I definitely appreciate the use of crotchless clothes!
Come on, keep your distance in normal life and no sexual harassment when we’re going about our normal careers and lives; if we signal we want sex, then mount us and cover us and make sure your body is in full contact with us!
Moreover Lex Steele has a good body. I don’t particularly pay attention to male faces, but I appreciate texture - hardness and firmness and definition in men. I wouldn’t want to be separated from a body like that when in bed, I want to feel that body! I want a nice chest like that on me. Why wear a stupid costume? Don’t you guys like visuals? Didn’t the porn director figure that male viewers want to see Zoe’s gorgeous body?
To me the run up to actual sex is very important. And costumes are indeed part of the fun during foreplay. You guys get to see us girls in whatever costumes that turn you on visually, and we get to feel as though we are playing some fun role (eg schoolgirl, nurse, whatever).
But for women, at some point all that has to stop. All clothes have to be removed eventually. That’s what intimate contact is all about!
Now to go to the good movie I want to talk about.
It’s Vanessa Chase and Rebecca Lord’s The Gangbang Girl. This is one movie that I will pretty much watch all the way from start to end. I usually only skip a few seconds here and there, mainly at the start.
Granted, I don’t fully identify with either girl, which does limit my pleasure. But I think most girls can identify with both girls through the movie, which is really crucial. Rebecca Lords’ breasts are too big for me, but I did generally have her body type when I was younger (I weigh a bit more now), so I definitely find it easier to put myself in her shoes.
And shoes! Yup, the right shoes! Can’t say how important that is.
I’m not turned on by sneakers any more than guys are. But sneakers are comfort, and when I’m watching Rebecca Lords in action, it’s really great that I can feel I’m her and comfortably fitting in her shoes.
No matter how manly I can be at times, there are always these little details that appeal only to me because I’m not male. (And inevitably, the male director of a porn movie will ignore the details that turn me on, providing minimal attention to things like mood and atmosphere and subaltern going-ons at the margin of the main action.)
Most of this porn scene is devoted to fucking VC silly, with RL taking up barely a quarter of screen time. And I appreciate this! This scene is such a perfect fit for me, because I identified so much with RL. The fact that most of the fucking was centered on VC, made me feel more like RL because she’s also a spectator!
In my younger days, I did go to events with a more adventurous friend where there was sexual activity. I would watch that friend get fucked and my reaction was almost certainly like RL’s. Watching anal and DP and triple penetration scared me, but I would also get wet and want to finger myself.
So when I watch The Gangbang Girl, I can say, “that’s me!” Yes, that’s was me! Slim and young and fresh out of school and wanting sex but not daring to get into it. I loved it when the guys started groping RL and while she initially did not resist, she soon got uncomfortable and pushed the guys away and retreated to a wall and backed herself against it.
I did the same in the past. Dress in a feminine dress and nice sexy underwear because I knew I was going to a sex event and wanted to consent to receiving attention, but when the men started crowding I got scared and retreated against a wall and became a spectator
I don’t know how the director did it or who gave such directorial instructions to RL, but that was such an awesome nuance that you don’t often see in gonzo porn nowadays. Maybe it was a natural reaction because it came very early in RL’s career, but it was so perfect because of this.
Inside most women, there is this inner slut wanting to get out. And there is always inhibition. I so loved the expressions on RL’s face and her (feigned?) discomfort when watching VC in action. VC was taking it in the ass quite a bit, and RL was looking a bit horrified and scared and aroused all at the same time, which was my real life reaction to seeing my friend being mounted and then sandwiched by large men.
My friend and I had done anal toying quite a bit by this point. A six inch toy in the ass wasn’t something foreign to me. But there is such a gigantic difference between having a toy that you can control, and giving up control to a man who is 200lbs. Any woman can play with a 6 inch, half pound toy. But it is really scary when a man with a similar penis wants to penetrate you. My friend was far from an anal virgin at this point, but she was not very experienced with DP and TP since she had mostly done DP and TP with girls wearing strap ons and toys, so she was every bit as fresh looking as VC pretended to be in this scene.
I honestly can’t remember many things about my real life experience. I think my ******* pressure had gone through the roof at this point, so I was hearing my own heartbeat in my ears. Someone did comment about me being so red and getting ******* so fast. I really felt as though I was exploding, so it was hard to concentrate on what was going on and besides I was scared when I saw my friend first doing DP and then TP. Remember, when you’re doing DP and TP with girls wearing strap ons, the girls are not bigger than you. You can still see the girl being penetrated. When you’re doing it with men, the size of the men’s bodies obscured my view, and like RL I didn’t want to leave the safety of the wall. So all I knew was that my friend had disappeared, was overwhelmed by MEN, and she was moaning and squealing and I was too scared to save her ass because I was afraid to leave my own butt unprotected.
I mention this repeatedly, because I did have a butt obsession at that point. I knew by then that (in theory, if done well) anal sex is great. But I also knew lots of girls who had terrible experiences and ******* for days and what not. So I really wanted to do anal but also didn't want to get analized.
So watching The Gangbang Girl was not just a reminder of my youth. It actually served as a stand in for my real life experience, which I have difficulty remembering because I was so outright nervous and excited. And of course, a real life scene isn’t like The Gangbang Girl where the cameraman always got the best viewing angles. In my real life scene I hardly got to see anything because there were men crowding everywhere and the host had filtered the lights so it wasn’t that bright. So all I was hearing was my friend’s cries, and the poor visibility caused my imagination to run wild.
It helped that the guys in this gangbang scene were fairly normal looking. Most didn’t have freakishly large penises. On this site, as a more experienced woman in her late 40s, I can fantasize about big black dick. I can assure you that as a 20-something woman with a very modest sex life, I would have been scared off by the sight of any monster prick. Our real life scene didn’t feature any very black men (there were mixed race guys with African DNA) or any particularly big dicks.
And talking about scared, yes, in my own real life scene, both my friend and I wore sneakers. Just like VC and RL in the Gangbang Girl. We’d discussed this before; if we wanted to flee the scene the best was to be wearing sneakers all the way. I had three taxi services on speed dial, my phone was open in my pocket (this is back in the days of flip phones) and thought we might wind up running away half naked if the guys were aggressive. Although things didn’t actually spin out of control and my friend was fine the next day, in a real life situation when there are so many strange men wandering around with sex on their minds, I was mentally and emotionally and sensorially overwhelmed.
Fake memories
I know I have some fake memories of my real life experience, and I’m quite happy to have my real life memories overwritten by this porn flick because it is so much more fun that way. In my real life experience I said lots of awkward and stupid things, turned away guys, and wound up sucking dick with my back to the wall because I was afraid my ass would be attacked. (And I’d done a thorough ******* beforehand, because I did want to prep for anal!)
In the Gangbang Girl, after RL gets comfortable she surrenders her body and the guys give her a thorough fucking.
I’d like to think that the guys carried me around and fucked me standing up like they did RL in the porn flick.
In real life, they didn’t. I would have freaked out if anyone lifted me off the ground. It’s quite interesting that in some porn flicks, that’s what I have seen as well. The men try to pick up a girl without warning. The girl had been doing anal or dp or ATM previously, so the guys think she will consent to anything. But it doesn’t work! The girl freaks out and starts hitting the guys and puts up a fight. It’s very interesting that I am far from being the only woman who considers being carried as a very sexual, submissive experience that I won’t just surrender to any man.
I like to see VC swapping cum after RL gets cummed on. I like to think that that was me, I was there, and that was what I did.
In real life, after I ascertained that my friend wasn’t dying from being triple penetrated, eventually I was approached by two guys, led upstairs, and did a relatively tame fuck and suck in a bedroom without any anal play. I didn’t swap cum, eat creampie, lick ass, or do any of the deliciously disgusting things that I now enjoy so much. So frankly, this is not my preferred memory. I would prefer to think of myself as Vanessa Chase being the center of attention, and fucked nonstop by lots of guys, cummed in and cummed on lots of times, swapping cummy kisses with another girl and eating the cream from her vagina. Watching the Gangbang Girl more often will overwrite the memories of the stupid and clumsy things I said and did in my real life experience.
Girls, I’d like to share my feelings, so please read on and tell me what you think!
It’s a bit random, but that’s like me. I was watching a bad porn movie, skipped through it, then I watched a good porn movie and was again fixated throughout without skipping. Then I decided to post my reaction here and get some responses...
First I watched Zoe Voss in The Avengers XXX porn parody.
It’s been said before, but I do like Zoe Voss. Her body type is close to my own, and I firmly identify with her mixed race appearance. Zoe has plenty of scenes in beds with nice looking guys. I, too, want to be her and be gorgeous and get fucked by porn stars with nice bodies and good stamina. (Instead of winding up as I often do, with guys whom I’d had great conversations with, but turned out to be lacking in the stamina or imagination department and overweight to boot.)
That Avengers scene sucked so bad. Zoe kept her costume on all the time, her partner was the awesome Lex Steele and he stripped but poor Zoe was denied skin contact with Lex’s nice body, they had sex only through the crotchless part of Zoe’s costume and Lex came on that stupid costume.
WTF, sperm belongs either inside the lady, or on the lady. Not on a latex costume!
OK, I know not everyone’s tastes are the same. And I do know women who like cosplay sex or being totally covered in latex or some kind of artificial costume. However I don’t know anyone who actually likes being ‘distant’ from their man during sex. Most girls feel annoyed if there is not enough skin contact, as though the guy wants to stay a distance from us. Men can enjoy sex just having penises stimulated, but women need everything to be stimulated. The only time when it is cool to have sex with minimal skin contact, is when you’re doing a quickie in a public place and don’t want anyone else to notice. (Yes, I’ve had sex in a library before, so there was only contact between genitals and it was a great thrill all the same.)
I absolutely hate sex where I am isolated from the guy except for the crotchless part of my costume. It feels very mechanical.
Crotchless costumes of any kind are meant for foreplay. To give you guys access so that you can finger us in public places. I’ve had my share of being fingered at the movies, in crowded bars, in trains and stadiums, and I definitely appreciate the use of crotchless clothes!
Come on, keep your distance in normal life and no sexual harassment when we’re going about our normal careers and lives; if we signal we want sex, then mount us and cover us and make sure your body is in full contact with us!
Moreover Lex Steele has a good body. I don’t particularly pay attention to male faces, but I appreciate texture - hardness and firmness and definition in men. I wouldn’t want to be separated from a body like that when in bed, I want to feel that body! I want a nice chest like that on me. Why wear a stupid costume? Don’t you guys like visuals? Didn’t the porn director figure that male viewers want to see Zoe’s gorgeous body?
To me the run up to actual sex is very important. And costumes are indeed part of the fun during foreplay. You guys get to see us girls in whatever costumes that turn you on visually, and we get to feel as though we are playing some fun role (eg schoolgirl, nurse, whatever).
But for women, at some point all that has to stop. All clothes have to be removed eventually. That’s what intimate contact is all about!
Now to go to the good movie I want to talk about.
It’s Vanessa Chase and Rebecca Lord’s The Gangbang Girl. This is one movie that I will pretty much watch all the way from start to end. I usually only skip a few seconds here and there, mainly at the start.
Granted, I don’t fully identify with either girl, which does limit my pleasure. But I think most girls can identify with both girls through the movie, which is really crucial. Rebecca Lords’ breasts are too big for me, but I did generally have her body type when I was younger (I weigh a bit more now), so I definitely find it easier to put myself in her shoes.
And shoes! Yup, the right shoes! Can’t say how important that is.
I’m not turned on by sneakers any more than guys are. But sneakers are comfort, and when I’m watching Rebecca Lords in action, it’s really great that I can feel I’m her and comfortably fitting in her shoes.
No matter how manly I can be at times, there are always these little details that appeal only to me because I’m not male. (And inevitably, the male director of a porn movie will ignore the details that turn me on, providing minimal attention to things like mood and atmosphere and subaltern going-ons at the margin of the main action.)
Most of this porn scene is devoted to fucking VC silly, with RL taking up barely a quarter of screen time. And I appreciate this! This scene is such a perfect fit for me, because I identified so much with RL. The fact that most of the fucking was centered on VC, made me feel more like RL because she’s also a spectator!
In my younger days, I did go to events with a more adventurous friend where there was sexual activity. I would watch that friend get fucked and my reaction was almost certainly like RL’s. Watching anal and DP and triple penetration scared me, but I would also get wet and want to finger myself.
So when I watch The Gangbang Girl, I can say, “that’s me!” Yes, that’s was me! Slim and young and fresh out of school and wanting sex but not daring to get into it. I loved it when the guys started groping RL and while she initially did not resist, she soon got uncomfortable and pushed the guys away and retreated to a wall and backed herself against it.
I did the same in the past. Dress in a feminine dress and nice sexy underwear because I knew I was going to a sex event and wanted to consent to receiving attention, but when the men started crowding I got scared and retreated against a wall and became a spectator
I don’t know how the director did it or who gave such directorial instructions to RL, but that was such an awesome nuance that you don’t often see in gonzo porn nowadays. Maybe it was a natural reaction because it came very early in RL’s career, but it was so perfect because of this.
Inside most women, there is this inner slut wanting to get out. And there is always inhibition. I so loved the expressions on RL’s face and her (feigned?) discomfort when watching VC in action. VC was taking it in the ass quite a bit, and RL was looking a bit horrified and scared and aroused all at the same time, which was my real life reaction to seeing my friend being mounted and then sandwiched by large men.
My friend and I had done anal toying quite a bit by this point. A six inch toy in the ass wasn’t something foreign to me. But there is such a gigantic difference between having a toy that you can control, and giving up control to a man who is 200lbs. Any woman can play with a 6 inch, half pound toy. But it is really scary when a man with a similar penis wants to penetrate you. My friend was far from an anal virgin at this point, but she was not very experienced with DP and TP since she had mostly done DP and TP with girls wearing strap ons and toys, so she was every bit as fresh looking as VC pretended to be in this scene.
I honestly can’t remember many things about my real life experience. I think my ******* pressure had gone through the roof at this point, so I was hearing my own heartbeat in my ears. Someone did comment about me being so red and getting ******* so fast. I really felt as though I was exploding, so it was hard to concentrate on what was going on and besides I was scared when I saw my friend first doing DP and then TP. Remember, when you’re doing DP and TP with girls wearing strap ons, the girls are not bigger than you. You can still see the girl being penetrated. When you’re doing it with men, the size of the men’s bodies obscured my view, and like RL I didn’t want to leave the safety of the wall. So all I knew was that my friend had disappeared, was overwhelmed by MEN, and she was moaning and squealing and I was too scared to save her ass because I was afraid to leave my own butt unprotected.
I mention this repeatedly, because I did have a butt obsession at that point. I knew by then that (in theory, if done well) anal sex is great. But I also knew lots of girls who had terrible experiences and ******* for days and what not. So I really wanted to do anal but also didn't want to get analized.
So watching The Gangbang Girl was not just a reminder of my youth. It actually served as a stand in for my real life experience, which I have difficulty remembering because I was so outright nervous and excited. And of course, a real life scene isn’t like The Gangbang Girl where the cameraman always got the best viewing angles. In my real life scene I hardly got to see anything because there were men crowding everywhere and the host had filtered the lights so it wasn’t that bright. So all I was hearing was my friend’s cries, and the poor visibility caused my imagination to run wild.
It helped that the guys in this gangbang scene were fairly normal looking. Most didn’t have freakishly large penises. On this site, as a more experienced woman in her late 40s, I can fantasize about big black dick. I can assure you that as a 20-something woman with a very modest sex life, I would have been scared off by the sight of any monster prick. Our real life scene didn’t feature any very black men (there were mixed race guys with African DNA) or any particularly big dicks.
And talking about scared, yes, in my own real life scene, both my friend and I wore sneakers. Just like VC and RL in the Gangbang Girl. We’d discussed this before; if we wanted to flee the scene the best was to be wearing sneakers all the way. I had three taxi services on speed dial, my phone was open in my pocket (this is back in the days of flip phones) and thought we might wind up running away half naked if the guys were aggressive. Although things didn’t actually spin out of control and my friend was fine the next day, in a real life situation when there are so many strange men wandering around with sex on their minds, I was mentally and emotionally and sensorially overwhelmed.
Fake memories
I know I have some fake memories of my real life experience, and I’m quite happy to have my real life memories overwritten by this porn flick because it is so much more fun that way. In my real life experience I said lots of awkward and stupid things, turned away guys, and wound up sucking dick with my back to the wall because I was afraid my ass would be attacked. (And I’d done a thorough ******* beforehand, because I did want to prep for anal!)
In the Gangbang Girl, after RL gets comfortable she surrenders her body and the guys give her a thorough fucking.
I’d like to think that the guys carried me around and fucked me standing up like they did RL in the porn flick.
In real life, they didn’t. I would have freaked out if anyone lifted me off the ground. It’s quite interesting that in some porn flicks, that’s what I have seen as well. The men try to pick up a girl without warning. The girl had been doing anal or dp or ATM previously, so the guys think she will consent to anything. But it doesn’t work! The girl freaks out and starts hitting the guys and puts up a fight. It’s very interesting that I am far from being the only woman who considers being carried as a very sexual, submissive experience that I won’t just surrender to any man.
I like to see VC swapping cum after RL gets cummed on. I like to think that that was me, I was there, and that was what I did.
In real life, after I ascertained that my friend wasn’t dying from being triple penetrated, eventually I was approached by two guys, led upstairs, and did a relatively tame fuck and suck in a bedroom without any anal play. I didn’t swap cum, eat creampie, lick ass, or do any of the deliciously disgusting things that I now enjoy so much. So frankly, this is not my preferred memory. I would prefer to think of myself as Vanessa Chase being the center of attention, and fucked nonstop by lots of guys, cummed in and cummed on lots of times, swapping cummy kisses with another girl and eating the cream from her vagina. Watching the Gangbang Girl more often will overwrite the memories of the stupid and clumsy things I said and did in my real life experience.
