There was a time early in our relationship where my black boyfriend ( now my husband ) eventually talked me into having sex with his friends. And where I thought it was only going to be one or two different guys, it turned into being a few more and most of them, more than once. I might add that he always gave me last choice about any guy, meaning if for some reason I didn’t like the guy, I had the choice of refusal. And yes, there were one or two of them that I refused not to have sex with either of them.
There was this one guy that I refused because I didn’t like a number of things that he said during casual conversation with about 5other friends we all gathered to watch a game. He was exceptionally good looking but when he talked about being with a few white girls, the reparation topic came up and he actually said that he liked fucking white girls to pay for the way the girls ancestors treated his great grandfather who was a slave etc.,etc.,and it just seemed to me that his attraction to white hurls was more as revenge snd that’s what he was thinking every time he had his black cock buried in a white girls pussy,. thinking this is for my great grandfather.. He actually said that right in front of the white girl he was with that day and in a joking manner, I was shocked when she said that she loves playing the reparation role with him.
After that evening, that conversation made me very curious about him, and long story short, and without talking to him about the subject, I told my boyfriend that I changed my mind about him and if he still wants to have sex with me, I’m willing to do so.. So it was all set up. Not surprisingly, he was a very good lover and all during the sex, I was thinking of what he was thinking while having sex with me.. Once the experience was over, I asked him.. “was that for your great grandfather..? He was shocked when I asked him that and I think our conversation lasted longer than the foreplay and sex put together but he finally admitted that it’s just something on his mind sometimes when he’s with a white girl and without any disrespect to me, it’s just something he can’t control and apologized to me.. but at the same time, he also said that he’s been attracted to me from the first time he met me and when he found out that my boyfriend was sharing me with a few others, he made it known that he really wanted to be next in line.. and that didn’t mean for his great grandfather. And when he was first told that I rejected him, he was very hurt. I eventually had sex with him a couple times more and never brought the subject up again but I’ve always wondered just how many black men have these thoughts while fucking a white woman....