How many other white men actually get sexually excited knowing they are inferior to black men and that white women prefer them sexually.
I hate myself for it but can't stop myself getting so turned on.
That's a negative. I'm white, and I do not at all feel this way. If it weren't for both white and black war veterans in America, we wouldn't be able to enjoy this place on a Thanksgiving. I'll kick it with any race of chick too if she's willing, and if she's cool to be around. Plenty of chicks of all races think I'm hot as fuck, and a lot of them make no attempt to hide that. They love my long hair, love my blue eyes, and there have been times when they cannot help but try to at least brush against my body or try to get me to look into their eyes. Their attraction to my Germanic features is almost unavoidable for them sometimes that I can tell my presence drives them nuts, and I'm just standing there many times. I love women for that. They are so mysteriously sexual, and having been to war, they can see that side of me in my eyes without me saying a word. They are simultaneously intrigued but also alarmed by my intensity, and it drives them up the fucking walls.
It's like some kind of primitive, ancient, genetically wired memory for their own genetics, like they just know right up front that I come from a line of seriously violent men who came from a very very cold, harsh place: the Vikings, the Celts, and, especially, the Germans. My ability to speak German makes it "harder" on them too. A German man with war experience speaks to a young lady as though she were his military science student, as German was a language built over centuries of war, so it sounds like a constantly flowing "lesson" of warfare and struggle for survival, even the fun stuff. To a Germanic warrior, the sex is a part of the conflict, except in a loving way, not a hateful way. She knows her body is a place where a man does not have to feel anger or fear of war, but can instead relax his mind so that she can help him reach peace through sex.
Latinas have always been the worst about it in my experience anyway. I mean some of them are so fucking horny, and the second they realize that I can sense it, they get even hornier. I love it, and they do too. I think the overall weakness in many different men makes this all the more noticeable in this day and age, but I'm not going to feel bad about it. I personally love bending chicks over, and having my way with them like the warrior that I am, and they love that about me. I love them for it too. My biological imperative is to bend them over, and make them pregnant as a warrior should. This may sound weird or corny to some of you, but I don't care. My nuts need to be drained, so why not make it special with chicks who actually cherish this truth?
Latinas, black girls, white girls, Asian girls, the whole color and racial spectrum, at one point or another I've either made love to them, fucked them, or have at the very least been blatantly hit on by them.
White men are here to stay on this planet. We are too stubborn, too brave, and too skilled to die, no matter how many race wars people want to start to divide the warriors of all races, and no matter how many people try to turn all of us into one weird, indistinguishable, "diverse" race. The same should be said about warriors of any other race who have their own homelands they too love and cherish.
If you think you can play God, or if you go down a rabbithole of self loathing, I ask that you please come back to the light where nobody will judge you to the point that you will leave the light again. Anyone who wants you to stay in your own personal hell is either in their own personal hell, is evil, or both.
Happy Thanksgiving, and stop hating yourselves. -E