Have been addicted for many years, ever since i first started jerking off and now presently married, it was to black men and white women only, buying porn here in manhattan on 42st, when it was a shady area all porn places, magazines like obeah and coco and creme, videos on a regular, and at most if not all of stores black men worked in, I use to have to ask for certain videos from them and pay for these magazines or videos, it was very embarrassing but I use to return weekly, sometimes twice a week to get black cock on white porn, you could see them laughing among themselfs or smirking and holding back laughter as I was paying, as a good looking clean cut white male buying black dominant men and white female filthy mags. like obeah, unreal people, and the most hardcore abusive gangbang videos. when I am just jerking off to porn now, I find myself edging and doing this daily for a few weeks at a time. Whenever I can't do it any longer and have to cum, I always make sure I kneel naked and cum never any other way, feel it shows me accepting this as normal in some sort of way in my mind. Can anyone relate in anyway at all?understand this? I also as of late been wanting to wear thigh high stockings,not sure why, as I j/o but haven't as of yet.
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