We are the same, I totally feel the same way. I have had girl friends and like my very first one that my best friend fucked in front of me many times as I watched and she would tell me how great his black Dick was I didn’t even try to do anything more than eat her which she loved and she gave me hand jobs she called my Dick the Beenie weenie , even said it was cute when I cum on myself. That set the tone for my life . Now I’ve lived with 4 different girl friends and basically the same situations my ass and mouth have gave pleasure to many and although my early years I didn’t think lived life with out ever penetrating a pussy but it was not in the stars and I am very happy now the way I am. I think I loved my friends black Dick more than my girl friend did