Sissy here. I've noticed a serious change in myself from watching largely interracial porn, as well as sissy trainers and hypnos. For some time, the only thing that has gotten be excited is thinking about BBC. I'm actually happy about it. I am learning that I have another goal and I think I'm better off training as a sissy.
While I would love to have a more feminine appearance, there are a lot of changes associated with feminization. Largely long-permanent chastity, constantly being plugged daily and a few other things. But committing to feminization is a scary step. Naturally, you would try to cling on to your last bit of masculinity - but is it worth it?
I think so. One motiviation is to see how beautiful it is for a white woman to no longer want a whiteboi, but instead she wants a strong black king. There are many chastity keyholders that they themselves are also Queen of Spades. Personally, I think there is nothing more attractive to have a key holder that is BBC only and hold your chastity key. You'll be locked for the foreseeable future, while she's free to do as she pleases with her black king. This helps us sissys realize how worthless we are.
I want to commit completely to being feminized, I'm just not sure what that means and what to expect. In that, what role am I expected to play?
Is acceptable to offer myself to a black king as a feminized sissy? It's the only thing that interests me. I am jealous that women get to sexually please black kings while it's much harder for many sissys. And at what point is it too much? Is it wrong that I want to see myself exclusively pleasing black kings? Is it wrong that the thought of being bred as a sissy by a black king is all am interested in?
I have read that sissy's get more feminine with more cum they get. I haven't taken this change seriously. I really need to. My goal is to also be exclusively BBC only, and I have to be the presentable to our black kings.
Is it in wrong for a sissy to get a spades tattoo? I really want to get a permanent spades tattoo, I think that it will help motivate me and work harder. Although I'm not sure if the Jack of Spades, , etc would ft my situation. Seeing the tattoo above my chastity device will only remind me of my commitment to BBC and the New World Order. There's also something so appealing about having something that matches so many blacked women - the QOS tattoo. Once you see the tattoo, you know that as a whiteboi, you have no chance and should get to your proper place.
