yes , i’m proud that that you understand my intense craving
I think I do understand your craving, but not fully of course.
That would be impossible, given the inevitably many and major differences between all males' experiences of homoeroticism, individually instilled, driven and enjoyed more or less intensely in the many and various ways we act out, more or less impulsively, our physical and emotional sexual desire with even the same male lover; let alone with different lovers we have had over the years.
For my part though, since my wife divorced me to marry my buddy and have children by him, my resonably frequent acts of intercourse with her are accompanied by unsuppressable and extremely graphic and arousing mind images of my buddy barebacking her and satisfying her---as he invariably does---much more vigorously, powerfully and easily than I ever have.
The imagery often focuses right down to things like his semen spurting powerfully and copiously from his widely gaping cum-slit thrust hard against my orgasming ex-wife's fucked-open cervix.
Mixed up with the imagery are vivid memories of his prostate rhythmically throbbing against my cockhead with the jerkings of his beautiful black cock as he ejaculates onto my belly and chest when I top him to orgasm in the missionary position.
Such is the thrilling erotic complexity of full-on fucking---both heterosexual and homosexual---in MFM threes ones.
How I physically experience my buddy and the concurrent mixed and myriad wildly varied and arousing erotic imagery when the roles are reversed and it's him topping me, is intensely prostatic and ecstatic indeed. To put it very mildly.
Just my 10 mls worth, my Cuck friend........
Vive les differences between us in our sexual experiencing of men!