Divorce you? Then you hide and are secretly fantasizing about black cock. You should try it at least once to satisfy your fantasy. You have 1 life and its short especially the sexually active years. As long as you arent killing anyone i think you owe it to yourself to try as many things as you are able to. Dont live a life of " I wish i wouldve" fill your fantasy cup as much as you can. If your partner really loves you would they not want to help you acheive any fantasy you might have? I feel if they truly love you they would. There are those who just cant handle things like this thats just reality. In that case its up to you to make it happenIf it was from what I was looking at I don't know, probably divorce me I think