Well ....... mine first started about 13 years ago when my girlfriend was pregnant I started watching ir porn here n there ... so over the next 6 years I really got into ir porn but not too crazy as I had a very good sex life w my wife now .....: the next 3 years our sex life started to slip and I became more and more obsessed with ir porn and its all I watch and started thinking any other porn was gross and unwatchable! I only was turned on if there was a bbc in the video/picture! Over this this time I realized and stared to think about how I wanted to be like these girls and started questioning my sexuality (if I was still straight man?) , I was jealous of these girls !! I almost exclusively watched IR anal porn and wanted to feel what these girls were feeling but I had no real black man to practice with (my goal ultimately was if I ran into the opportunity to fuck hot well hung black man could my ass handle it !) so I started with small butt plug progressed to large ones when watching ir porn . I felt my hole was finally ready for bbc ! I went to porn shop and bought a realistic bbc replica w cock n balls n suction cup (made me feel so slutty purchasing this lol ) I did my regular anal cleanse wore my plug all day n then sucked and fucked that bbc like a slutty porn star... I continue to practice on this for a few years fucking and sucking my bbc dildo .... I NOW WANTED THE REAL THING !!! The 3 most recent years I am now training my self to be chastity and wear my plugs in order to only get sexual sensations for my boi pussi... I am trying soo hard to find a real life bbc to service (I wanna start by sucking one to completion) I also Iām in works of feminization and staying pussy free .... the only sex I want is to be on the servicing end of a bbc
