I have written before about a guy I was seeing soon after I started seeing guys. He was a big black guy, good looking, funny and great lover. I started feeling I was going out on a date rather than a meet. I did develop quite strong feelings for him and I thought he had for me too. Like the other guys I've met, he never wore a condom. Foolishly (or perhaps I was hoping for better response) I joked that I kept forgetting to take the pill. He then dropped me like a stone. He had ******* from an ex gf so I don't think he wanted the risk of more. I often wonder what would have happened if we had carried on seeing each other.