Diane:
I grew up in a conservative Irish Catholic family in the northeast. I started out with reddish-blond hair that turned to my current auburn as I got older. As a baby of the late 60's and early 70s, I was rebellious and a bit wild. I am only now realizing the level of sexual energy and free thought of the times in which I lived. I know now that I am a product of both stern and conservative family values and a desire to be a wild baby of the times.
I married for the first time young (yes because of a love baby), but the marriage did not last. I ended up raising my 2 girls mainly on my own and married Mark, my soulmate. He came into my life when they were almost grown and on their own.
Mark was also married before he met me. It was a short marriage with no children.
Our marriage was and is loving and sexual. Although I love sex, I was mostly traditional and conservative. Mark was the experimental one. He first brought vibrators and toys into our sex life. After some resistance and guilt on my part I learned to like them...a lot. He convinced me to watch adult films with him. While I had seen some while growing up, mainly at parties with friends, I never watched any in a sexual way and with a partner. It was shocking, embarrassing and eventually a huge turn on for me. Mark also took me to some strip clubs/ adult clubs a couple times. So in some ways you could say he corrupted me, or did he open my eyes to my hidden desires? We had and have a good relationship and, I thought, were completely open about our sexual desires.
One thing Mark liked was browsing internet porn. I did not like this habit and had a hard time understanding why he was interested when he had me. However, I allowed him this indulgence. It was while watching some adult films that I first saw a black man naked and interracial sex. It was not something that interested me and I always had Mark skip or fast forward past those scenes. However, I did notice that the Black men were well endowed, but who isn't in such movies.
Then, a few years ago I noticed that Mark was browsing interracial sex sites. When I asked him about it, he said it was just something different and the hot scenes with the girls were exciting. For some reason I did not think this was the full story. Hating myself, a few weeks later I checked his browsing history and visited some of the sites for myself. Needless to say I was shocked at how much interracial porn was available and even more shocked at the explicit, especially amateur pictures and videos. After getting past the initial shock I had to look and research more. Reading and seeing all the stories about women and wives desiring "BBC" was another shock and then reading of how men wanted to share their wives with Black men just put me over the top with shock. It was something I never imagined with my conservative upbringing.
Now my mind was spinning, why was Mark looking at and reading this stuff. Did he want to share me? See me with a Black Man? I was still too overwhelmed and confused to confront him directly, what would I say to him? What would he say to me? What if it was not my imagination and these were his true desires. I didn't want to know but had to find out...
Over the next few weeks I started including scenes and fantasies from movies we watched or things we discussed in our sex life. Things like, "remember that scene in the Vienna movie where the blindfolded girl sucked a black man? Did you find that sexy?" He answered but with nothing definite and nothing to make me think it held any special interest. Then one night while I was teasing and rubbing his cock, I said "imagine we are on vacation with another couple, we always fantasize about swapping right? "and you find that hot, right? ... he was enjoying this game. Then I said "what if the man in the couple was black?" That got a big twitch in his cock, but he did not verbally respond. then I said "If we swapped I would be having sex with a black man" He was rock hard at this point, so I went on and asked...Would you like to see that" at which point he came all over my hand, stomach, breasts... I had an answer...
The next day I told him I wanted to discuss his interest in interracial sex, he tried to deny there was any at first, but then said OK, let's talk tonight.
...and that is what started my journey to joining this site and chatting and interacting with all of you.
Di
Next Up - Who I am now and then Who I want to be.
I grew up in a conservative Irish Catholic family in the northeast. I started out with reddish-blond hair that turned to my current auburn as I got older. As a baby of the late 60's and early 70s, I was rebellious and a bit wild. I am only now realizing the level of sexual energy and free thought of the times in which I lived. I know now that I am a product of both stern and conservative family values and a desire to be a wild baby of the times.
I married for the first time young (yes because of a love baby), but the marriage did not last. I ended up raising my 2 girls mainly on my own and married Mark, my soulmate. He came into my life when they were almost grown and on their own.
Mark was also married before he met me. It was a short marriage with no children.
Our marriage was and is loving and sexual. Although I love sex, I was mostly traditional and conservative. Mark was the experimental one. He first brought vibrators and toys into our sex life. After some resistance and guilt on my part I learned to like them...a lot. He convinced me to watch adult films with him. While I had seen some while growing up, mainly at parties with friends, I never watched any in a sexual way and with a partner. It was shocking, embarrassing and eventually a huge turn on for me. Mark also took me to some strip clubs/ adult clubs a couple times. So in some ways you could say he corrupted me, or did he open my eyes to my hidden desires? We had and have a good relationship and, I thought, were completely open about our sexual desires.
One thing Mark liked was browsing internet porn. I did not like this habit and had a hard time understanding why he was interested when he had me. However, I allowed him this indulgence. It was while watching some adult films that I first saw a black man naked and interracial sex. It was not something that interested me and I always had Mark skip or fast forward past those scenes. However, I did notice that the Black men were well endowed, but who isn't in such movies.
Then, a few years ago I noticed that Mark was browsing interracial sex sites. When I asked him about it, he said it was just something different and the hot scenes with the girls were exciting. For some reason I did not think this was the full story. Hating myself, a few weeks later I checked his browsing history and visited some of the sites for myself. Needless to say I was shocked at how much interracial porn was available and even more shocked at the explicit, especially amateur pictures and videos. After getting past the initial shock I had to look and research more. Reading and seeing all the stories about women and wives desiring "BBC" was another shock and then reading of how men wanted to share their wives with Black men just put me over the top with shock. It was something I never imagined with my conservative upbringing.
Now my mind was spinning, why was Mark looking at and reading this stuff. Did he want to share me? See me with a Black Man? I was still too overwhelmed and confused to confront him directly, what would I say to him? What would he say to me? What if it was not my imagination and these were his true desires. I didn't want to know but had to find out...
Over the next few weeks I started including scenes and fantasies from movies we watched or things we discussed in our sex life. Things like, "remember that scene in the Vienna movie where the blindfolded girl sucked a black man? Did you find that sexy?" He answered but with nothing definite and nothing to make me think it held any special interest. Then one night while I was teasing and rubbing his cock, I said "imagine we are on vacation with another couple, we always fantasize about swapping right? "and you find that hot, right? ... he was enjoying this game. Then I said "what if the man in the couple was black?" That got a big twitch in his cock, but he did not verbally respond. then I said "If we swapped I would be having sex with a black man" He was rock hard at this point, so I went on and asked...Would you like to see that" at which point he came all over my hand, stomach, breasts... I had an answer...
The next day I told him I wanted to discuss his interest in interracial sex, he tried to deny there was any at first, but then said OK, let's talk tonight.
...and that is what started my journey to joining this site and chatting and interacting with all of you.
Di
Next Up - Who I am now and then Who I want to be.
