But why...?

[Jakesoft]

Why does this BBC cuck life turn me on so much?

Guys, I’m a 32 year old white guy from the states, been living all over the world last 8 years or so. I’ve had a very active sex life from my teens and always had a girlfriend (current gf of 3 years, now my fiancé). Almost all perfectly loyal to me. Only ever had 1 real heartbreak and even in my younger years I always a bit of a player and had a side girl. The point here, I’ve always had stability and consistency both emotionally and sexually, and strong self-confidence. Then one day about 6 years ago I woke up to this fetish completely own my own, and started pushing my then-gf (now ex) to want to do this. Since then my interest and desire for this has only grown exponentially, to the point it’s the only thing that can turn me on, like many of you on here (I mean why and how else did we find a forum on the internet for such a specific fetish ).

I won’t touch on my story too much, but I’ve fully woken up the deeply wild nature of my fiancé (she’s Asian). She was really conservative and religious before me (those usually are the closeted psycho-sexual ones anyway right! ) and I was her first. So she’s naturally very committed to me. But I saw it in her and I knew exactly how to flip that switch and make her see her true inner nature. Now we’re both very open with each other sexually and it’s a very good situation, probably the best I’ve ever been in within a relationship. She’s 8 years younger than me and had no experience, so that let me guide her, and it’s been fulfilling. Our bond is strong, so is our trust. She didn’t have sex with any black guys yet but she’s been out with 3 just to meet up in public. She’s 100% into it but wanting to find the “right one”. Mind you this all has been driven by me, and it was I who consciously planted the idea in her head through porn, long talks, and lots of very verbal sex.

But I can’t help but ask myself...WHY am I so turned on by this? Why am I so okay turning her loose on all the black men she wants? It doesn’t make me feel insecure, it makes me feel MORE secure in my relationship. I love the idea of letting her have what she wants. Seeing her be a hyper slut turns me on like nothing else. Despite having so much positivity in my relationship and life, WHY does this turn me on so much and feel like it could be a completely normal way of life for my fiancé and I (and that I feel okay wanting that)?

Any thoughts?

Side note guys.... can’t say enough how much I appreciate this site and the open expression of so many likeminded people. You are all awesome people, It’s good to know this phenomenon is more common than it is be perceived to be! Keep living your best (sex) life!

 

[cancuck165]

The question of why has always troubled me too. I never thought I would be a cuckold but it began slowly by watching MMF porn in college and then imagining my girlfriend with other guys, especially black guys. Her first was actually a black guy. When he broke it off with her, she turned into a slut fucking 20 or so guys in a couple of weeks before finding me. Twenty is what she told me but who knows how many guys she had fucked. Anyways, I think for me it's always been a mix of a couple of things. Not sure if you can throw yourself into any of these groups:

1. Inadequacy: I've always thought I was decent in bed, but the way she talked about her exes and their sizes (When she was ******* enough to talk about them) really made me feel less than desirable. I knew she loved me, but I also knew she loved black cock and getting fucked like a whore. So instead of having our relationship fall apart because she's missing something, I have always thought that by simply adding another man to fuck your girlfriend/fiance/wife she gets what she needs and you don't have to go through a divorce when you're 47 and give her everything. In doing this, you can actually save your marriage. People cheat over time, desires wane. By bringing it up early with your fiance, you might have saved yourself from her cheating and betrayal down the line.

1a: Along with this is the feeling of being completely open with someone. So many relationships have secrets and I know that's why some of my relationships have failed. There's something to say about completely expressing your deepest desires with someone and acting our your fantasies with that person. Maybe that's another reason why you feel your relationship is stronger with this. There is a great deal of trust that needs to be had between the cuckold-hotwife-bull triangle. In sharing this with her, you guys have formed a level of trust with each other. Sure that might be tested over the years, but knowing she loves you as you look her in the eyes while she's sinking her pussy onto a black cock is a powerful experience.

2. Bisexual Factor: I struggled with it in High School and thought I was gay. I had girlfriends and was attracted to girls too though. But something about a cock drew me in. I never thought about a relationship with a guy, I just wanted a physical connection with guys and a physical and emotional connection with women. By adding another man into the relationship, you might get the best of both worlds. Even if the bull isn't gay, you might still get your own personal pornstar couple.

3. Voyeurism: I love knowing what people don't want me to know. Their fantasies, crushes, the people they fuck, I want to know it all. I love watching porn and thinking they don't know I'm there and I'm watching in secret. I think this fantasy of mine in watching other people do something society says is really taboo really turns me own. That's why I always thought it was hot watching her spread her legs for another man. Like I said earlier, it's like a live action porn. Maybe you love jerking off so much you just sometimes you just want to watch her and not have to fuck her. You can get so many unique and hot angles while watching her you wouldn't get if you were fucking her.

Anyways, I've written a lot and rambled a lot. Hit me up if you want to talk some more!