Hey all!
I'm brand new to these forums. I found this place from searching for this kind of thing in Google where people can freely share thoughts and opinions on interracial topics. I'm not necessarily looking for relationships, but more so looking to hear other peoples' opinions and testimonies because I feel like I'm going through some weird things in my life. If this thread doesn't belong under the General Discussion, please kindly let me know! I definitely welcome any ideas and everyone's voices, but please don't be offended if I say anything too taboo!
I've been single for almost a year. I'm a big reader, and I can spend a lot of time reading erotic stories. The things I've been into are very seductive, almost science fiction or paranormal stories, like involving mind control or magic. But over the last month or two I've gotten into these fantasies of being dominated. Not that I'm submissive, so to speak. It's more like I want to resist, lose, and gradually give into what's unfolding. Moreover, it's been about black men. Lately I find myself looking up the dirtiest stories I can find, usually under tags like "black bred" or "black impregnation". For some reason I really get hot when there is very racy, dirty talk, and when the girl in the story gets "converted" accidentally. Something about it is driving me crazy. In one story, a lady friend intentionally plots to convert her very reluctant friend. The girl falls into a trap of having sex with a black guy and slowly loses herself until all she can think about is having a black baby. I don't know why or where these feelings came from, but they are crushing my brain!
I've always dreamed of having a typical and traditional family, white husband, white *******, the picket fence, etc. But lately the sexual urges are making me feel so dirty and taboo. To many, this is absolutely fine and I get that. I'm not trying to make interracial couples or sex look like a bad thing. I'm just trying to understand myself and what I'm going through. Has anyone had similar feelings? How did you handle them? Will trying things out get them out of my system? Or will I get "converted"?
I'm brand new to these forums. I found this place from searching for this kind of thing in Google where people can freely share thoughts and opinions on interracial topics. I'm not necessarily looking for relationships, but more so looking to hear other peoples' opinions and testimonies because I feel like I'm going through some weird things in my life. If this thread doesn't belong under the General Discussion, please kindly let me know! I definitely welcome any ideas and everyone's voices, but please don't be offended if I say anything too taboo!
I've been single for almost a year. I'm a big reader, and I can spend a lot of time reading erotic stories. The things I've been into are very seductive, almost science fiction or paranormal stories, like involving mind control or magic. But over the last month or two I've gotten into these fantasies of being dominated. Not that I'm submissive, so to speak. It's more like I want to resist, lose, and gradually give into what's unfolding. Moreover, it's been about black men. Lately I find myself looking up the dirtiest stories I can find, usually under tags like "black bred" or "black impregnation". For some reason I really get hot when there is very racy, dirty talk, and when the girl in the story gets "converted" accidentally. Something about it is driving me crazy. In one story, a lady friend intentionally plots to convert her very reluctant friend. The girl falls into a trap of having sex with a black guy and slowly loses herself until all she can think about is having a black baby. I don't know why or where these feelings came from, but they are crushing my brain!
I've always dreamed of having a typical and traditional family, white husband, white *******, the picket fence, etc. But lately the sexual urges are making me feel so dirty and taboo. To many, this is absolutely fine and I get that. I'm not trying to make interracial couples or sex look like a bad thing. I'm just trying to understand myself and what I'm going through. Has anyone had similar feelings? How did you handle them? Will trying things out get them out of my system? Or will I get "converted"?