Definitely an addiction for me.........the more I got, the MORE I wanted!! The more I did for them, the more I was willing to do for them, I was at a point where NOTHING was too far fetched for me to try. Hubby was getting fed up....what had started as something to spice up our marriage (and it DID!!) had become a 7 nite a week, multiple partners a nite, dragging home at 3 AM, sleep a few hours and drag off to work so I could get that over and get back to BBC that night again!! A "friday evening out for a few hours" became a weekend long unplanned gang bang with I have no idea how many guys.......one would call a couple friends who called a couple friends who called a couple friends.....I removed y diaphragm (all the birth control I use) about midnite Friday to prove I was the freakiest white girl they EVER met and never saw it again, got dropped off in my all white upper middle class driveway by a caddy full of black guys in front of neighbors, dripping sperm from every orifice , ******* and high (someone started rubbing coke on my clit and WOW!!! ******* were an absolute for my medical professional ER Manager husband), half dressed, covered in sperm literally from head to toes, and if hubby was not a medical pro I would have had to make a trip to his ER for a ******* overdose.........he gave me an ultimatum several days later when I was coherent again and I chose our ******* and him, gave up BBC cold turkey, but WOW do I miss it. It was an addiction tho.....I couldn't and wouldn't control it any better now than then so I get my "fix" from affairs with white guys, current my Boss/Lover who has been my Lover for 7 years.