Am I Weird?

So I already made my first post in one of the stories forum but wanted to introduce myself here as well. Obviously there's a whole community surrounding this being that this forum exists, but am I weird for loving the fact the girl I love craves and has sex with monster black dicks? Like I feel like the "normal" response would be to get jealous or never talk to her again but instead I find myself experiencing enjoyment almost on the same level as she must be for actually taking it. Am I weird for loving this so much? I think about her taking monsters daily and everytime I do I get horny beyond belief.