I think that being a cuckold has taken over my life and made me do things and think things that I would have never done previously.
Like all men I have looked and masturbated to pornography; from a postpubescent age to the age I am now.
It is only recently that I have found cuckold porn through watching interracial porn. It angered me at first – what makes a man do that? What a bunch of wimps! After a while it intrigued me – what makes a man except being a cuckold? Have they had some trauma when they were young? Are they afraid of losing their wife or just not very sexually good?
I never considered myself to be a wimp, a loser, and a beta male. I never had a small cock and have always got on with women and had my fair share of girlfriends and fuck partners. Don't get me wrong; I am definitely not a stud but more an 'average Joe'.
But there was something about cuckolding that got me all riled up and extremely horny. The more I read or watched the more the lure of becoming one became strong.
Of course my wife never knew that. What would she think of such a loser husband? I was worried about her leaving me for having such sick, perverted fantasises. So I carried on my cuckold fantasies in private and secret away from my wife. Outwardly, I was still the strong alpha male; the husband; the provider; but inside something was lurking and I could not get a grip on it. That led me into talking with other cuckolds on the websites to break this curse; to understand why and defeat it. But, instead it strengthened the desire and fantasy to the extent that I started joining live group chats and private discussions with other cuckolds and some bulls.
This in turn led me to real FaceTime and Skype chats with cuckolds. I must have been mad to be so open and public but I needed to know more – get my sexual kicks. Living through others experiences did that – for a while. But as the genuine cuckolds kept telling me – it won't go away - the curse; this perverted fantasy, It will only get stronger until you have lived the experience – been cuckolded!
Keeping such desire and secret private from my wife became more and more difficult. I needed a way to tell her. We still had a sex life; a bit sedentary than in our younger days but still reasonable for a long-term relationship.
It was during one of these moments that my wife and I discussed fantasises. My wife and I have no ******** (decided on having careers first) and on particular fantasy involved me impregnating her somewhere public or exotic; like a public park or on a Caribbean beach.
While we role-played and conducted foreplay I started to talk about being watched by a stranger as we fucked. I observed my wife get more into it and so I upped the ante. I mentioned that he was masturbating and getting closer to us. My wife became more and more excited until the moment I told her that the stranger wants to fuck her and will she let him?
That killed the mood dead! I was now in serious **** as my wife stopped me and pushed me away, Glaring at me she asked if I thought if she was a slut and why I wanted only an strange man to fuck her! I Had no reply so kept quite. My wife gave a growl and then turned her back on me – hitting the pillow she then lowered her head and went to *****. I lay there with my thoughts in turmoil.
We never discussed this incident and it seemed like it had been forgotten. The next time we had sex an entirely new element got introduced into our fantasy pool; the male voyeur watching us fuck. My wife loved that! Who would have known my wife had an exhibitionist – voyeur kink lol. This was arousing to me and I tried my best to fuck her brains out lol
In the post-climax bliss my wife asked me if I liked the thought of her being fucked roughly by a strange man – I never said anything about being rough! But I played it down and said it was a hot fantasy but not really us. My wife never said anything and we continued enjoying the fantasy.
I really wanted to make my cuckold fantasy a reality but it was too dangerous to my marriage and I did feel threatened by the thought of some stud being better than me and my wife losing any sexual desire she has for me. So I continued keeping my desire a secret and a private matter.
One night I was video –chatting with a cuckold when my wife was out with friends. He told me about his wife cuckolding him with a younger guy who became their bull. He tried to avoid the question I asked about the bull's age. He just said that he was younger then their ages of 28 and 30 years old. I just assumed that he meant the bull was early or mid-20's. But something he said got me puzzled – he mentioned that their bull had got his wife to pull a sicky at work and he had fucked her in their bed. Nothing strange there right? But he said that the bull had a study day? I asked him what he meant and he got embarrassed and started to stutter. With little finesse I told him to tell me how old the bull was – he muttered "18" and then quickly stated that it was legal in Britain. Wow! A 18 year old bull fucking a older cuckold's wife. I managed to reassure him that I was not judgmental and he explained how it had been his wife's fantasy for years to teach a younger man how to please a women –she wanted a virgin but instead they got a 18-year old with limited experience; the next best thing.
This excited me. It was not because of the cuckolding but more because of the age differences and how there is something taboo / something wrong about having someone much younger than you fuck your wife hard. The cuckold had told me about the challenges of having a much younger, just legal, lover for his wife. Most of them are less of an issue with bulls the same age or older. For him he said it was the lack of maturity; the lack of relative life experience in a younger bull compared to an older bull. The thought of some young young who has only hit puberty a few years ago fucking your wife better then you – even with all of your experience! With a young college boy, those expectations are flipped. There are plenty of horny and energetic men that would love to fuck a married woman, and many of them wouldn't mind doing it in front of her husband. He told me it was just finding the right one –the one who would grow into a bull for cuckolds – not fall in love with the wife and try to take her away; who would not cause troubles for the married cuckold couple in their everyday lives.
I thought about what he said for a few days after our chat. I imagined me at 17 -18 years old and how I would have loved the opportunity to fuck a married older woman. It sadly never happened; the closest I ever got was to look down the top of one of my female teachers. I started to have the fantasy that female teachers and older married women should give the male teenagers, with their hormones causing hard-ons at the slightest thing, a chance to fuck them. This was an addition to those sick, perverted cuckold fantasises I was having. It made them even worse to imagine my wife in that situation – after all she was a teacher to young boys and girls and I wondered how much she knew about their sexual fantasises and whether any boys had flirted with her?
Those late nights continued with my wife none the wiser. We continued how the fantasises about the stranger. I tried to get my wife imagining him fucking her but she seemed to prefer the thought of him just watching and masturbating. I guessed that I would just be a wannabe –cuckold but how fate intervened!
On one of those nights I have mentioned earlier, I was contributing to the cuckold chat when a new contributor joined. I had not noticed them before and they seemed more interested in reading the posts then contributing to the chat. Just then they messaged me and asked if I was a cuckold? I told them that I was not and was more interested than involved. They asked to chat. In hindsight it was like a lion hunting their prey – looking for the opportunity, the weak prey, who would fall into your trap!
I found out the individual was a male who called himself "Jay". We spoke about cuckolding and he asked a few questions. I asked a few questions and found out that this was his first time in the fetish and that he was curious. He saw himself as more of a bull than a cuckold and was curious about how he could find out more about finding a cuckold couple. I let him know what I knew and how it takes time and patience; how dozens of guys try it on with cuckold couples online and are either way over the top or too aggressive. I told him that I thought the best bulls are probably the ones who strike a balance between dominance and compromise and who get to know the cuckolds and their wives before they even mention fucking the wives. We parted on good terms and I thought that was that.
I continued to try to bring soft cuckold fantasises into my wife's and I sex life; her dressing sexy and being ogled by other men and her being chatted up at a bar by another man; but it seemed like she was not that interested. I even inquired about the boys at her school and whether any had flirted with her –she shut that down very quickly – "NO! They are not allowed to do that with teachers"! Wow. Talk about old iron britches lol
The next night while surfing the cuckold sites again and watching a video of a big black cock fucking a white pussy, I get a message from Jay. I accepted his invite and we spoke some more about cuckolding and how he could get a cuckold couple to accept him as a bull. He seemed nice enough, pleasant with a great sense of humour. He displayed a level on intelligence over many of the wannabe bulls I have seen in the cuckold chats and on the websites. He seemed a perfect fit for a cuckold couple. I imagined how he would have his big hard dick in hand thinking about a future fuck at the forefront of my mind of some cuckold's wife. He was not pushy and had not immediately demanded to see nudes of my wife and I guessed he was like this with other cuckolds he spoke. I asked him that and he said I was the only one. Strange... but then again I thought I had a level of intelligence above many cuckolds who just think with their dicks. How wrong was I!!! (think back to my comment about the lion and their prey).
The following night Jay asked to facetime or Skype with me. I saw no problems with that and man was I in for a surprise!.......................... For you see Jay was a 18yo boy! He noticed my surprise and explained that he did not say anything straight out because he knew I would not have spoken with him and helped him. He said that other cuckolds had done so previously. In a way I felt for him and felt his frustration – we were all young once and getting off on porn lol
We got talking about fucking teachers and older married women and I told him about what I was like at his age. With hindsight, Jay was obviously playing the long game and had the e presence of mind to make it real. He asked me a few questions – not out of what we were discussing like did I want my wife to cuckold me and how? what were my wife and I like as a couple? Had I ever cuckolded anybody or been a bull? (that is a straight no!).
He told me about his limited sexual experiences, like guys together do, and I must admit I got off on the dirty **** he told me –even though I thought that some of it must have been male bravado lol We had a similar mind set on many things sexually and we agreed that not many girls or women are into cuckolding and how they must be encouraged to enjoy their sexual freedom and broaden their experiences. All in all it was one of the better chats, either by video or just keyboard that I have had. A kind of male bonding was developing.
As the times we chatted increased Jay started to become more vocal about how it would be great if he fucked my wife –the teacher. He asked me to fantasy with him –first as him and later as the cuckold. I told him that I was jerking off to the fantasy and he encouraged me to cum for him. He told me how he would "fuck that pussy" –my wife pussy and make sure she knew who was the better lover. I cannot tell you how this got me off. Then he dropped a bombshell. He wanted to see my wife – ummm I was reluctant but seeing as we had developed a friendship I sent him a dressed pic of my wife. He said that she looked just like a teacher lol Not sure what he meant by that but I started to imagine this boy fucking her. The more we spoke the stronger the desire got. Till in the end I told him that I would get my wife to talk with him –was I mad????
I finally told my wife about my cuckold fantasy after a night of sex involving the fantasy of us being watched. I told her how worried I was that she would find it sick or perverted and love me less. She reassured me that her love for me would not diminish and that it was OK. I explained how I had spoken to other cuckolds and she seemed surprised to hear of such a thing. So I had got this far... I then told her about Jay and how we had chatted. She said that was "nice"; some other guy to share your fantasy with. I explained that it was not like that and that he was more a bull (this took some explaining between my wife's disbelief that such things exist). She asked if he was some older pervert guy or arrogant and cocky. I told her the opposite – that in fact he played the fantasy but seemed pleasant enough and friendly. This reassured her and she agreed to think talking with him with me there.
The following night I told my wife that I was going to see if Jay was online and would she like to sit-in. She was reluctant and instead said she would watch and listen but did not want to join in or be seen. We managed to find a way to do this. My wife was out of the sight of the laptop webcam –standing at just in front of me by the side. She heard Jay tell me that he would fuck my wife and give her what she was missing, and how all married wife's especially teachers should be fucked by teenagers like him! This must has struck a chord with my wife because she slammed the laptop lid shut! Ending the conversation dead. She then walked over in a huff.
I worried that maybe this was a step to far and I should have just spoke with the boy in private
without my wife present. I decided the best policy was not to say anything and let things slide for now.
Like all men I have looked and masturbated to pornography; from a postpubescent age to the age I am now.
It is only recently that I have found cuckold porn through watching interracial porn. It angered me at first – what makes a man do that? What a bunch of wimps! After a while it intrigued me – what makes a man except being a cuckold? Have they had some trauma when they were young? Are they afraid of losing their wife or just not very sexually good?
I never considered myself to be a wimp, a loser, and a beta male. I never had a small cock and have always got on with women and had my fair share of girlfriends and fuck partners. Don't get me wrong; I am definitely not a stud but more an 'average Joe'.
But there was something about cuckolding that got me all riled up and extremely horny. The more I read or watched the more the lure of becoming one became strong.
Of course my wife never knew that. What would she think of such a loser husband? I was worried about her leaving me for having such sick, perverted fantasises. So I carried on my cuckold fantasies in private and secret away from my wife. Outwardly, I was still the strong alpha male; the husband; the provider; but inside something was lurking and I could not get a grip on it. That led me into talking with other cuckolds on the websites to break this curse; to understand why and defeat it. But, instead it strengthened the desire and fantasy to the extent that I started joining live group chats and private discussions with other cuckolds and some bulls.
This in turn led me to real FaceTime and Skype chats with cuckolds. I must have been mad to be so open and public but I needed to know more – get my sexual kicks. Living through others experiences did that – for a while. But as the genuine cuckolds kept telling me – it won't go away - the curse; this perverted fantasy, It will only get stronger until you have lived the experience – been cuckolded!
Keeping such desire and secret private from my wife became more and more difficult. I needed a way to tell her. We still had a sex life; a bit sedentary than in our younger days but still reasonable for a long-term relationship.
It was during one of these moments that my wife and I discussed fantasises. My wife and I have no ******** (decided on having careers first) and on particular fantasy involved me impregnating her somewhere public or exotic; like a public park or on a Caribbean beach.
While we role-played and conducted foreplay I started to talk about being watched by a stranger as we fucked. I observed my wife get more into it and so I upped the ante. I mentioned that he was masturbating and getting closer to us. My wife became more and more excited until the moment I told her that the stranger wants to fuck her and will she let him?
That killed the mood dead! I was now in serious **** as my wife stopped me and pushed me away, Glaring at me she asked if I thought if she was a slut and why I wanted only an strange man to fuck her! I Had no reply so kept quite. My wife gave a growl and then turned her back on me – hitting the pillow she then lowered her head and went to *****. I lay there with my thoughts in turmoil.
We never discussed this incident and it seemed like it had been forgotten. The next time we had sex an entirely new element got introduced into our fantasy pool; the male voyeur watching us fuck. My wife loved that! Who would have known my wife had an exhibitionist – voyeur kink lol. This was arousing to me and I tried my best to fuck her brains out lol
In the post-climax bliss my wife asked me if I liked the thought of her being fucked roughly by a strange man – I never said anything about being rough! But I played it down and said it was a hot fantasy but not really us. My wife never said anything and we continued enjoying the fantasy.
I really wanted to make my cuckold fantasy a reality but it was too dangerous to my marriage and I did feel threatened by the thought of some stud being better than me and my wife losing any sexual desire she has for me. So I continued keeping my desire a secret and a private matter.
One night I was video –chatting with a cuckold when my wife was out with friends. He told me about his wife cuckolding him with a younger guy who became their bull. He tried to avoid the question I asked about the bull's age. He just said that he was younger then their ages of 28 and 30 years old. I just assumed that he meant the bull was early or mid-20's. But something he said got me puzzled – he mentioned that their bull had got his wife to pull a sicky at work and he had fucked her in their bed. Nothing strange there right? But he said that the bull had a study day? I asked him what he meant and he got embarrassed and started to stutter. With little finesse I told him to tell me how old the bull was – he muttered "18" and then quickly stated that it was legal in Britain. Wow! A 18 year old bull fucking a older cuckold's wife. I managed to reassure him that I was not judgmental and he explained how it had been his wife's fantasy for years to teach a younger man how to please a women –she wanted a virgin but instead they got a 18-year old with limited experience; the next best thing.
This excited me. It was not because of the cuckolding but more because of the age differences and how there is something taboo / something wrong about having someone much younger than you fuck your wife hard. The cuckold had told me about the challenges of having a much younger, just legal, lover for his wife. Most of them are less of an issue with bulls the same age or older. For him he said it was the lack of maturity; the lack of relative life experience in a younger bull compared to an older bull. The thought of some young young who has only hit puberty a few years ago fucking your wife better then you – even with all of your experience! With a young college boy, those expectations are flipped. There are plenty of horny and energetic men that would love to fuck a married woman, and many of them wouldn't mind doing it in front of her husband. He told me it was just finding the right one –the one who would grow into a bull for cuckolds – not fall in love with the wife and try to take her away; who would not cause troubles for the married cuckold couple in their everyday lives.
I thought about what he said for a few days after our chat. I imagined me at 17 -18 years old and how I would have loved the opportunity to fuck a married older woman. It sadly never happened; the closest I ever got was to look down the top of one of my female teachers. I started to have the fantasy that female teachers and older married women should give the male teenagers, with their hormones causing hard-ons at the slightest thing, a chance to fuck them. This was an addition to those sick, perverted cuckold fantasises I was having. It made them even worse to imagine my wife in that situation – after all she was a teacher to young boys and girls and I wondered how much she knew about their sexual fantasises and whether any boys had flirted with her?
Those late nights continued with my wife none the wiser. We continued how the fantasises about the stranger. I tried to get my wife imagining him fucking her but she seemed to prefer the thought of him just watching and masturbating. I guessed that I would just be a wannabe –cuckold but how fate intervened!
On one of those nights I have mentioned earlier, I was contributing to the cuckold chat when a new contributor joined. I had not noticed them before and they seemed more interested in reading the posts then contributing to the chat. Just then they messaged me and asked if I was a cuckold? I told them that I was not and was more interested than involved. They asked to chat. In hindsight it was like a lion hunting their prey – looking for the opportunity, the weak prey, who would fall into your trap!
I found out the individual was a male who called himself "Jay". We spoke about cuckolding and he asked a few questions. I asked a few questions and found out that this was his first time in the fetish and that he was curious. He saw himself as more of a bull than a cuckold and was curious about how he could find out more about finding a cuckold couple. I let him know what I knew and how it takes time and patience; how dozens of guys try it on with cuckold couples online and are either way over the top or too aggressive. I told him that I thought the best bulls are probably the ones who strike a balance between dominance and compromise and who get to know the cuckolds and their wives before they even mention fucking the wives. We parted on good terms and I thought that was that.
I continued to try to bring soft cuckold fantasises into my wife's and I sex life; her dressing sexy and being ogled by other men and her being chatted up at a bar by another man; but it seemed like she was not that interested. I even inquired about the boys at her school and whether any had flirted with her –she shut that down very quickly – "NO! They are not allowed to do that with teachers"! Wow. Talk about old iron britches lol
The next night while surfing the cuckold sites again and watching a video of a big black cock fucking a white pussy, I get a message from Jay. I accepted his invite and we spoke some more about cuckolding and how he could get a cuckold couple to accept him as a bull. He seemed nice enough, pleasant with a great sense of humour. He displayed a level on intelligence over many of the wannabe bulls I have seen in the cuckold chats and on the websites. He seemed a perfect fit for a cuckold couple. I imagined how he would have his big hard dick in hand thinking about a future fuck at the forefront of my mind of some cuckold's wife. He was not pushy and had not immediately demanded to see nudes of my wife and I guessed he was like this with other cuckolds he spoke. I asked him that and he said I was the only one. Strange... but then again I thought I had a level of intelligence above many cuckolds who just think with their dicks. How wrong was I!!! (think back to my comment about the lion and their prey).
The following night Jay asked to facetime or Skype with me. I saw no problems with that and man was I in for a surprise!.......................... For you see Jay was a 18yo boy! He noticed my surprise and explained that he did not say anything straight out because he knew I would not have spoken with him and helped him. He said that other cuckolds had done so previously. In a way I felt for him and felt his frustration – we were all young once and getting off on porn lol
We got talking about fucking teachers and older married women and I told him about what I was like at his age. With hindsight, Jay was obviously playing the long game and had the e presence of mind to make it real. He asked me a few questions – not out of what we were discussing like did I want my wife to cuckold me and how? what were my wife and I like as a couple? Had I ever cuckolded anybody or been a bull? (that is a straight no!).
He told me about his limited sexual experiences, like guys together do, and I must admit I got off on the dirty **** he told me –even though I thought that some of it must have been male bravado lol We had a similar mind set on many things sexually and we agreed that not many girls or women are into cuckolding and how they must be encouraged to enjoy their sexual freedom and broaden their experiences. All in all it was one of the better chats, either by video or just keyboard that I have had. A kind of male bonding was developing.
As the times we chatted increased Jay started to become more vocal about how it would be great if he fucked my wife –the teacher. He asked me to fantasy with him –first as him and later as the cuckold. I told him that I was jerking off to the fantasy and he encouraged me to cum for him. He told me how he would "fuck that pussy" –my wife pussy and make sure she knew who was the better lover. I cannot tell you how this got me off. Then he dropped a bombshell. He wanted to see my wife – ummm I was reluctant but seeing as we had developed a friendship I sent him a dressed pic of my wife. He said that she looked just like a teacher lol Not sure what he meant by that but I started to imagine this boy fucking her. The more we spoke the stronger the desire got. Till in the end I told him that I would get my wife to talk with him –was I mad????
I finally told my wife about my cuckold fantasy after a night of sex involving the fantasy of us being watched. I told her how worried I was that she would find it sick or perverted and love me less. She reassured me that her love for me would not diminish and that it was OK. I explained how I had spoken to other cuckolds and she seemed surprised to hear of such a thing. So I had got this far... I then told her about Jay and how we had chatted. She said that was "nice"; some other guy to share your fantasy with. I explained that it was not like that and that he was more a bull (this took some explaining between my wife's disbelief that such things exist). She asked if he was some older pervert guy or arrogant and cocky. I told her the opposite – that in fact he played the fantasy but seemed pleasant enough and friendly. This reassured her and she agreed to think talking with him with me there.
The following night I told my wife that I was going to see if Jay was online and would she like to sit-in. She was reluctant and instead said she would watch and listen but did not want to join in or be seen. We managed to find a way to do this. My wife was out of the sight of the laptop webcam –standing at just in front of me by the side. She heard Jay tell me that he would fuck my wife and give her what she was missing, and how all married wife's especially teachers should be fucked by teenagers like him! This must has struck a chord with my wife because she slammed the laptop lid shut! Ending the conversation dead. She then walked over in a huff.
I worried that maybe this was a step to far and I should have just spoke with the boy in private
without my wife present. I decided the best policy was not to say anything and let things slide for now.