I started by fantasizing too. Eventually I just had to try. Eventually you'll have to try too. I still like women. Fucking feels great. I don't need to call myself gay or bi or straight, but I do call myself a cock sucker. I have a black master. He's dominant and I'm submissive. I suck his cock and he fucks me. You can find a nice black man to fulfill your desires. You'll find out that sucking a black man's cock is better than your fantasy. If you're lucky, you'll find a women that wants to join you in serving your black master.