It makes me more relaxed not having the responsability and stress anymore to satisfiy her. It made me also feel less male/manly. I also lost more and more hard-ons, performance and stamina but that enforces the idea that it is normal and ok she has sex with another guy. When you become impotent you can not be angry that your wife seeks sex out of your relationship. I also got interested in gay sex or let say not having blocking thoughts about trying gay sex. I was also missing the intimacy with my wife and must say I found that in a way having sex with another guy being/becoming a gay bottom. It also made me understand that a lot of healthy women needs dick and semen to be happy. I leared that by also start to like dick, sucking it, taking it and also getting bred by a guy and getting addicted to receive semen in me. It changed me definitely but made me happy, more whole and realxed.