I was wondering if other men remember specific points in wich the attraction to Interracial cuckolding began for them.
I belive personally that in certain moments, heightened emotions, first experiences etc… while growing up the brain will hard wire things into place.
For me, I was in 3rd grade, my school began bussing in ******* from less fortunate parts of the city, this included the first bused in Black and Hispanic ******* I had ever seen… prior to this as white ******* go i was big and had actually emerged as the toughest kid in the class.
I remember very vividly the very first Black student to eneter my class… I will call him Mark, Mark was seated a few seats down from me…
before i go on I should say, this was also literally the first few weeks of my life I had experienced any kind of arrousal directed at females, I had a girl that sat next to me who i will call Anna
As luck would have it, Mark our new Black student was seated on the opposite side of Anna. Now Anna was the source of my very first fantasies, I was able to achieve a state of pleasure by rubbing myself against a blanket at night and daily i would dream about her, I didn't have full erections yet but it was very pleasureable.
Mark was quiet for the first couple of hrs but then i noticed something… Anna and several other girls were looking over thier desks smiling at marks table, I leaned over and looked and there was mark with his cock out…and yes i call it a cock, because he was fully erect and showing his stuff to the girls, when he talked for the first time he told Anna to look when she averted her gaze… he noticed me looking too and then sharply said… Not YOU with a bit of aggression… the girls giggled including my Anna, and I couldn't really take my eyes away because I had never seen an erect penis before… then Mark looked at anna and said "you can touch it" I whispered don't and Mark very Loud said Shut UP… I felt utterly humiliated and for some reason the teacher didn't notice, marks tone was deep and he shut me up for a moment with his voice… Anna then reached out and placed her hand around marks cock…
At that point the teacher noticed distraction and mark quickly put it away… this was my first experience of being cuckolded although i had no idea… After some self ******* i remembered my habits at night after the incident… I distinctly remember trying very hard to make my penis as large as marks when rubbing it, while trying I did achieve an erection and recall my first discharge… i never connected those things befoe in my life… but my first orgasm and first erection was visualizing my first girlfriends hand holding the Black ******* Cock…
Two things I remember from that day, the girls watching, I had never seen that look before..the sexual fascination, they all instinctively loved his Cock…all smiles and bright eyes, a look that only for a few years in my prime did I ever see from girls looking at my penis.
the second thing I remeber is that I loved the way Annas hand looked wraped around his cock… even after he scolded me in front of the girls I kept looking and masterbated when I went home that night…
There were other moments but I think that was the pivitol one that my brain formed a sexual pattern on…
Just wondering does anyone else have any growing up experiences to relate, I think Young Black males maturing faster around white students and these new experiences might contribute to the lust many of us feel to see out wives or lovers with black men, many things growing up from obvious differences I saw between myself and the black students in gym locker room and superior athletic and fighting skills surely added in… but for me it was that first moment.
I belive personally that in certain moments, heightened emotions, first experiences etc… while growing up the brain will hard wire things into place.
For me, I was in 3rd grade, my school began bussing in ******* from less fortunate parts of the city, this included the first bused in Black and Hispanic ******* I had ever seen… prior to this as white ******* go i was big and had actually emerged as the toughest kid in the class.
I remember very vividly the very first Black student to eneter my class… I will call him Mark, Mark was seated a few seats down from me…
before i go on I should say, this was also literally the first few weeks of my life I had experienced any kind of arrousal directed at females, I had a girl that sat next to me who i will call Anna
As luck would have it, Mark our new Black student was seated on the opposite side of Anna. Now Anna was the source of my very first fantasies, I was able to achieve a state of pleasure by rubbing myself against a blanket at night and daily i would dream about her, I didn't have full erections yet but it was very pleasureable.
Mark was quiet for the first couple of hrs but then i noticed something… Anna and several other girls were looking over thier desks smiling at marks table, I leaned over and looked and there was mark with his cock out…and yes i call it a cock, because he was fully erect and showing his stuff to the girls, when he talked for the first time he told Anna to look when she averted her gaze… he noticed me looking too and then sharply said… Not YOU with a bit of aggression… the girls giggled including my Anna, and I couldn't really take my eyes away because I had never seen an erect penis before… then Mark looked at anna and said "you can touch it" I whispered don't and Mark very Loud said Shut UP… I felt utterly humiliated and for some reason the teacher didn't notice, marks tone was deep and he shut me up for a moment with his voice… Anna then reached out and placed her hand around marks cock…
At that point the teacher noticed distraction and mark quickly put it away… this was my first experience of being cuckolded although i had no idea… After some self ******* i remembered my habits at night after the incident… I distinctly remember trying very hard to make my penis as large as marks when rubbing it, while trying I did achieve an erection and recall my first discharge… i never connected those things befoe in my life… but my first orgasm and first erection was visualizing my first girlfriends hand holding the Black ******* Cock…
Two things I remember from that day, the girls watching, I had never seen that look before..the sexual fascination, they all instinctively loved his Cock…all smiles and bright eyes, a look that only for a few years in my prime did I ever see from girls looking at my penis.
the second thing I remeber is that I loved the way Annas hand looked wraped around his cock… even after he scolded me in front of the girls I kept looking and masterbated when I went home that night…
There were other moments but I think that was the pivitol one that my brain formed a sexual pattern on…
Just wondering does anyone else have any growing up experiences to relate, I think Young Black males maturing faster around white students and these new experiences might contribute to the lust many of us feel to see out wives or lovers with black men, many things growing up from obvious differences I saw between myself and the black students in gym locker room and superior athletic and fighting skills surely added in… but for me it was that first moment.