Your inner voice (A woman)

Just curious if anyone has an inner voice when they're getting fucked. I have this mystery voice, that's sort of a sanctuary place while I'm in the act of surrendering to another man. I can't say her name, but it's a special place inside me that I go to when I'm giving my body over to a strong man. It wasn't always there and before my first time, I wasn't an uber masculine guy, but I was definitely masculine inside and out. But on my first time with another man, I felt a power from him that eclipsed my own. I thoroughly enjoyed it and basked in it's glow. It was POWER. It literally felt like he was robbing me, taking what he wanted, grabbing my neck and telling me to be quiet. I could feel his lust, the ridge of the head of his penis plunge in, then pull me out, plunge in, then pull me out. I knew after that time, and almost everytime since, that I could never feel a power like that, even from within myself. And sex with women didn't measure the raw power of that. So I protect my inner voice. I don't know if this is unique to me, but it's special to me. To be taken so ferociously, and give in to him.
 
Just curious if anyone has an inner voice when they're getting fucked. I have this mystery voice, that's sort of a sanctuary place while I'm in the act of surrendering to another man. I can't say her name, but it's a special place inside me that I go to when I'm giving my body over to a strong man. It wasn't always there and before my first time, I wasn't an uber masculine guy, but I was definitely masculine inside and out. But on my first time with another man, I felt a power from him that eclipsed my own. I thoroughly enjoyed it and basked in it's glow. It was POWER. It literally felt like he was robbing me, taking what he wanted, grabbing my neck and telling me to be quiet. I could feel his lust, the ridge of the head of his penis plunge in, then pull me out, plunge in, then pull me out. I knew after that time, and almost everytime since, that I could never feel a power like that, even from within myself. And sex with women didn't measure the raw power of that. So I protect my inner voice. I don't know if this is unique to me, but it's special to me. To be taken so ferociously, and give in to him.
You are not alone in this. I am bisexual by nature, but extremely masculine. Not just looking but acting as well. I've always been a cuckold in that all the women I've loved have cheated on me and I'm ok with it. But I thought i should maybe explore gay sex. I had always been curious. When I began it was just giving the occasional blow job. I enjoyed it, but nothing was earth shattering. Then I met Marcus. He was at tall, extremely handsome black man that people noticed immediately when he entered a room. It was a chance meeting, but within an hour of meeting him we were in my apartment. That was the night everything changed for me. Marcus was so good at manipulating me, I found myself wanting to do for this man whatever he wanted. His power over me was absolutely intoxicating. After about two weeks of Marcus having me whenever he wanted I felt the girl inside me wake up. She had a voice that was very submissive and kept telling me it was ok to want Marcus as much as I did and it was ok to grave sex with him. She convinced me that I should act more like a girl for him. The next time I was with Marcus I asked him if he would like it if I started dressing like a girl for him. He told me he would love it and that we should go shopping that week. That started the greatest sexual relationship I've ever had. It's long been over, but I do miss the girl inside me.
 
I've never been able to get myself to dress up. I'm also 6ft and pretty muscular, so it doesn't work aesthetically.

If I could go back in time, especially in today's gender climate, I would transition to how I feel inside. Or how I began to feel inside after my experience in jail. I know inside that I am a woman. Maybe not a prototypical woman, but I know my place is to pleasure men. I get pleasure knowing that I'm giving pleasure. The male body is a powerful, lustful ******* and I love to feel that power.

I'll probably marry a woman at some point. I make great money and I'm a great listener, and she will be well taken care of monetarily and sexually by whatever studs she chooses.
 
I had an interesting conversation with my wife just two days ago. First you must know my wife stopped having sex with me over 10 years ago. Can't say that I didn't expect it. She had been sleeping around from the time we married and I was fine with it. A big contributor to that situation is due to three major flaws with me. One is that I am not sexually aggressive. Two is that I am small, only 5 inches and third I am impotent 90% of the time.
In the course of finding new doctors I was sent to a urologist. He wrote me a prescription for viagra. When I got home, I told my wife what had happened.
She got terribly flustered and started ranting about them putting ideas in my head about having sex. She insisted she was not interested. Of course what she really meant was she wasn't interested in sex with me. If I had to have sex it was fine with her if I found a girlfriend for that, or even go to ******. I told her not to worry I would not ask her for sex and that if I did get a girlfriend it would only be for sex because I did not want to take on another woman's issues.
Her permission for me to get another woman for sex was a wasted hall pass anyway, because there is one thing my wife does not know about me. I would rather have sex with another man. In all the years we haven't had sex, my inner female has taken over my lust triggers. I look at beautiful women in sexual situations I get semi-hard and can get off to it, but when I see a beautiful man, especially a superior black man in all his glory, my lust goes through the roof and I get a nice erection. So it looks like I am going to have to find a male "friend". Hopefully black
 
Just curious if anyone has an inner voice when they're getting fucked. I have this mystery voice, that's sort of a sanctuary place while I'm in the act of surrendering to another man. I can't say her name, but it's a special place inside me that I go to when I'm giving my body over to a strong man. It wasn't always there and before my first time, I wasn't an uber masculine guy, but I was definitely masculine inside and out. But on my first time with another man, I felt a power from him that eclipsed my own. I thoroughly enjoyed it and basked in it's glow. It was POWER. It literally felt like he was robbing me, taking what he wanted, grabbing my neck and telling me to be quiet. I could feel his lust, the ridge of the head of his penis plunge in, then pull me out, plunge in, then pull me out. I knew after that time, and almost everytime since, that I could never feel a power like that, even from within myself. And sex with women didn't measure the raw power of that. So I protect my inner voice. I don't know if this is unique to me, but it's special to me. To be taken so ferociously, and give in to him.
wow - i never thought of it that way...but i certainly felt when I was starting out and there is something special about being taken by a powerful man :lips: :sex:
 
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