Your inner voice (A woman)

#1
Just curious if anyone has an inner voice when they're getting fucked. I have this mystery voice, that's sort of a sanctuary place while I'm in the act of surrendering to another man. I can't say her name, but it's a special place inside me that I go to when I'm giving my body over to a strong man. It wasn't always there and before my first time, I wasn't an uber masculine guy, but I was definitely masculine inside and out. But on my first time with another man, I felt a power from him that eclipsed my own. I thoroughly enjoyed it and basked in it's glow. It was POWER. It literally felt like he was robbing me, taking what he wanted, grabbing my neck and telling me to be quiet. I could feel his lust, the ridge of the head of his penis plunge in, then pull me out, plunge in, then pull me out. I knew after that time, and almost everytime since, that I could never feel a power like that, even from within myself. And sex with women didn't measure the raw power of that. So I protect my inner voice. I don't know if this is unique to me, but it's special to me. To be taken so ferociously, and give in to him.
 
#3
Just curious if anyone has an inner voice when they're getting fucked. I have this mystery voice, that's sort of a sanctuary place while I'm in the act of surrendering to another man. I can't say her name, but it's a special place inside me that I go to when I'm giving my body over to a strong man. It wasn't always there and before my first time, I wasn't an uber masculine guy, but I was definitely masculine inside and out. But on my first time with another man, I felt a power from him that eclipsed my own. I thoroughly enjoyed it and basked in it's glow. It was POWER. It literally felt like he was robbing me, taking what he wanted, grabbing my neck and telling me to be quiet. I could feel his lust, the ridge of the head of his penis plunge in, then pull me out, plunge in, then pull me out. I knew after that time, and almost everytime since, that I could never feel a power like that, even from within myself. And sex with women didn't measure the raw power of that. So I protect my inner voice. I don't know if this is unique to me, but it's special to me. To be taken so ferociously, and give in to him.
You are not alone in this. I am bisexual by nature, but extremely masculine. Not just looking but acting as well. I've always been a cuckold in that all the women I've loved have cheated on me and I'm ok with it. But I thought i should maybe explore gay sex. I had always been curious. When I began it was just giving the occasional blow job. I enjoyed it, but nothing was earth shattering. Then I met Marcus. He was at tall, extremely handsome black man that people noticed immediately when he entered a room. It was a chance meeting, but within an hour of meeting him we were in my apartment. That was the night everything changed for me. Marcus was so good at manipulating me, I found myself wanting to do for this man whatever he wanted. His power over me was absolutely intoxicating. After about two weeks of Marcus having me whenever he wanted I felt the girl inside me wake up. She had a voice that was very submissive and kept telling me it was ok to want Marcus as much as I did and it was ok to grave sex with him. She convinced me that I should act more like a girl for him. The next time I was with Marcus I asked him if he would like it if I started dressing like a girl for him. He told me he would love it and that we should go shopping that week. That started the greatest sexual relationship I've ever had. It's long been over, but I do miss the girl inside me.
 
#4
I've never been able to get myself to dress up. I'm also 6ft and pretty muscular, so it doesn't work aesthetically.

If I could go back in time, especially in today's gender climate, I would transition to how I feel inside. Or how I began to feel inside after my experience in jail. I know inside that I am a woman. Maybe not a prototypical woman, but I know my place is to pleasure men. I get pleasure knowing that I'm giving pleasure. The male body is a powerful, lustful force and I love to feel that power.

I'll probably marry a woman at some point. I make great money and I'm a great listener, and she will be well taken care of monetarily and sexually by whatever studs she chooses.
 
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