I do not think that you CHOOSE to be a cuckold. A "normal" person would not want to be humiliated and denied sex and so clearly put in a lesser position. I believe you ARE a cuckold. That is something you are born into and you cannot change your basic nature. It seems that there are many different ways you arrive at the cuckold state. It may be because you are small and cannot perform. You may just lack the manliness to attract a woman sexually. Being white must play a role in that it would seem most cuckolds are white and few, if any, black men are cuckolds.
Sex, and also relationships in general, are both mental and physical. The pleasure part is what keeps the relationships healthy. The black man is the driving ******* in most of these relationships. I think his pleasure is two fold. It is first the pleasure of being with a white woman who has gotten beyond any prejudices and will almost certainly be committed to his pleasure. And I mean really committed. Secondly, the black man is more masculine and I suspect he enjoys the idea of taking the woman away from the white boy. The raunchier the sex and the less the white boy gets to do the more it is a turn. This is what it is to be an alpha male. To take what is yours. It has to be more than coincidence that most alpha males are black. People may not like that but it is reality. It has taken me years to accept this but I now do.
The white woman is naturally attracted to the black man. He allows her to be soft and feminine. Her pleasure is sexual, of course, with a superior man. But I think it is also mental. It is a power trip for her to have the white boy around desiring her and for her to deny him. The taboo nature of the interracial sex may play a role but I think it is the nature of the men themselves. White girls like black men. Do all of them? Probably not but deep down that is the most natural sexual relationship. I say this because how else could you explain the growing numbers of black men and white women despite the pressures and prejudices white men have brought to this to try and stop it. You cannot stop it. Better to accept it.
Finally the cuckolded boy. I do not understand it all but it seems like the cuckold has a deeply seated desire to have sex but an even greater desire to submit. He knows that he cannot compete. So the normal way for a cuckold to have sex is by masturbation. Nature makes it pleasurable for the cuckold to be humiliated and makes him desire to see his white wife with a black man. He is just drawn into it. He also is naturally inclined to accept defeat at the hands of the alpha man. It allows him to stop trying to be something that he is not. That is what it means to be a beta male. To accept that you are a lesser man and to appreciate the honesty that your wife shows by having sex with another man. For me, I think it helps if the alpha male is a black man. That just is easier to accept.
These are my thoughts on this. Everybody wins in a cuckolding relationship as long as everyone accepts their role. I think it is like a tower with the black man at the top. His pleasure and needs come first. If they are met then the white woman is satisfied but it takes the chastity of the white boy and his defeat by and submission to the black man to make this work. The couple actually involved in sex and a romantic relationship both need the cuckolded boy for that extra bit of spice to make it work. (Sorry, Dsoul if the answer is too long)