whitewomen wait til there older to want a blackman

Maybe there's hope for my 51 yr old white wife? I need her to want a black man so bad that it hurts. Any and all help getting her to that point would be much appreciated:).
I hung out with the older neighbor next door when I was 13 and she was 18. She had a little apartment behind her parents house. Total freedom. It's bad I know but I would lie to my parent and go over there to smoke cigarettes and hang out. She had quite a collection of porn magazines I got turned on looking at them. She had this one called girls who eat cum. Interacial edition. Page after paige of white girls taking the cum loads of black men. Even though I was still a virgin ai love looking at all those big cocks and the hot gils with the cum on their face or in there mouths.