What should i do

My name is maddy 26 years old . I am in a relationship for 2.5 years now with a white men, before him i had a lot of black men . The first time i had a black men in my bed i was in heaven ! After that i was addicted to the black dick. I felt in love with my boyfriend im in love and wanne stay with him forover but i miss one thing and thats a black dick that gives me what i need! I came by this site and my mind says just take a look mayb you can talk about it with other people. My boyfriend doesnt know this. This is my story xx maddy