My experience goes back 15 years or so. This was the first year I was with my GF and before we ever considered getting married. We where celebrating the union workers Day along with some friends in a big public park with some friends, and on the way home, we where walking past a corner of the park where all the people from the black communities in our city had joined for the same celebration, and she made a casual remark, not to me specifically, but out in the air about one or two. Moving forward a year, we where again celebrating the same event, but this time with a girlfriend of hers, and they where talking about a holliday trip from the past to Egypt, where they apparently had joined a party with the national rugby team, and in the conversation between the two of them, they refered to them as "huge" or "Big" - without being more elaborative. Half a year later we where married, and the I discovered the Internet. Apparently the seeds had been sown for some mistrust, and I began to search for interracial, wife, cheating in relation to stories and others, and has been addicted to this type of sex ever since. I never used to be jalous before then, but have developed the bad habit ever since, and combined with som other non related relationship issues, this have had some effect on the sexlife too. My wife has over the years gavner some weight, and has partially for the above reasons developed a lack of the same interest in sex as I have, and until last year, I thought that was the only reason. However on two occasions she has now Said to me during arguments, that an additonal reason was because of my lack of stamina during sex and because of occasional lack of size for me, typical because she didnt do much to spike my drive during either. I've tried to suggest toys, but with no Luck. She doesnt Want that. I believe (at leaset in my fantasies) that both I and she would love it. What should I do???