What is the matter with me???

#1
I'm a 30 yo married man. I have a thick beautiful wife which I love with all my heart. I can't stand the thought of her being with another man, but boy,I have to admit: when I think of a BBC entering her, I get hard as a rock. I can't stop thinking about, but she will not even hear it. She's completely opposed to bringing someone in our bed, especially another man. I hinted a few times but to no avail.
For me on the other hand it has become like an obsession. I masturbate watching close-ups of IR porn, thinking it's her and I saved tons of POV pics with BBC entering a fat white cunt just so I can imagine it's hers. I fantasize about her laying on her back and me sucking his BBC just to make it wet and throbbing, then put its head at the entrance of her pussy and see how it easily slides into her...I jacked off 3 times today and I'm about to do it again 'cause I got so horny writing my fantasy. At one point I was even considering giving her some roofies and after she's passed out, have a black guy come in and fuck her while she's out of it! How fucked up is that???? Can anybody please, PLEASE tell me what the fuck is the matter with me???
 
#6
I'm a 30 yo married man. I have a thick beautiful wife which I love with all my heart. I can't stand the thought of her being with another man, but boy,I have to admit: when I think of a BBC entering her, I get hard as a rock. I can't stop thinking about, but she will not even hear it. She's completely opposed to bringing someone in our bed, especially another man. I hinted a few times but to no avail.
For me on the other hand it has become like an obsession. I masturbate watching close-ups of IR porn, thinking it's her and I saved tons of POV pics with BBC entering a fat white cunt just so I can imagine it's hers. I fantasize about her laying on her back and me sucking his BBC just to make it wet and throbbing, then put its head at the entrance of her pussy and see how it easily slides into her...I jacked off 3 times today and I'm about to do it again 'cause I got so horny writing my fantasy. At one point I was even considering giving her some roofies and after she's passed out, have a black guy come in and fuck her while she's out of it! How fucked up is that???? Can anybody please, PLEASE tell me what the fuck is the matter with me???
Start with bringing in a female to your bedroom to ease her into the lifestyle of sharing , The more you do it chances are she ease into it and wanna explore more... Give it some time.. Good- Luck....
 

willsrvu

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#9
.... I fantasize about her laying on her back and me sucking his BBC just to make it wet and throbbing, then put its head at the entrance of her pussy and see how it easily slides into her...I jacked off 3 times today and I'm about to do it again 'cause I got so horny writing my fantasy. At one point I was even considering giving her some roofies and after she's passed out, have a black guy come in and fuck her while she's out of it! How fucked up is that???? Can anybody please, PLEASE tell me what the fuck is the matter with me???
Having fantasies, not matter how "dark" they may seem, is normal and not a problem.

How you deal with those desires is a different matter. If all you do is fantasize and masturbate, it's no problem, enjoy it.
However, if you start to seriously consider doing something like what you have described, putting your wife in jeopardy by drugging her and allowing a stranger to rape her, make no mistake IT IS RAPE, you need to seek professional help. If nothing else, get away from your wife before you do something really stupid.

If you are really that far gone, tell your wife about your fantasies. She will either like the idea and you will get to see your fantasy fulfilled or she will think you're a sick fuck and maybe leave you, which protects her from you and lets you go find someone who is already into this.
Either of which works.
 

bm_from_southjersey

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#10
I'm a 30 yo married man. I have a thick beautiful wife which I love with all my heart. I can't stand the thought of her being with another man, but boy,I have to admit: when I think of a BBC entering her, I get hard as a rock. I can't stop thinking about, but she will not even hear it. She's completely opposed to bringing someone in our bed, especially another man. I hinted a few times but to no avail.
For me on the other hand it has become like an obsession. I masturbate watching close-ups of IR porn, thinking it's her and I saved tons of POV pics with BBC entering a fat white cunt just so I can imagine it's hers. I fantasize about her laying on her back and me sucking his BBC just to make it wet and throbbing, then put its head at the entrance of her pussy and see how it easily slides into her...I jacked off 3 times today and I'm about to do it again 'cause I got so horny writing my fantasy. At one point I was even considering giving her some roofies and after she's passed out, have a black guy come in and fuck her while she's out of it! How fucked up is that???? Can anybody please, PLEASE tell me what the fuck is the matter with me???
There is nothing wrong with having fantasies, it's only natural, whether they be tame or wild. But like willsrvu said, how you act on them is a different story.

While seeing her with a black man is your fantasy, she has made it pretty clear that she isn't interested. Not every relationship is destined to be an open/sharing/cuckold relationship. If you love your wife as much as you say you do, you would be best served keeping these thoughts exactly where they are- in your head. If you keep bringing it up, you risk alienating your wife to the point where she may decide that your marriage isn't worth staying in, and I'm assuming that isn't what you want.
 
#11
There is nothing wrong with having fantasies, it's only natural, whether they be tame or wild. But like willsrvu said, how you act on them is a different story.

While seeing her with a black man is your fantasy, she has made it pretty clear that she isn't interested. Not every relationship is destined to be an open/sharing/cuckold relationship. If you love your wife as much as you say you do, you would be best served keeping these thoughts exactly where they are- in your head. If you keep bringing it up, you risk alienating your wife to the point where she may decide that your marriage isn't worth staying in, and I'm assuming that isn't what you want.
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Women are as different as there are as many of us ... some go Black, others don't. It is an individual choice. Put me in the 'Love Black Inside Me!' column.
 

MacNfries

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#12
fiasco, you might start by finding out what her sexual fantasies are, and whether she's willing to "rollplay" about them. If she's not willing to share her deepest fantasies, and isn't willing to rollplay, you're wasting your time. The old saying "don't try to teach a pig to sing, 'cause you are just wasting your time and irritating the pig" ... probably holds true here.
If she's open to discussing sexual fantasies, you might try selling her on the idea that you would like to maximize her pleasure by having 2 men make love to her at the same time (my wife's favorite). But overall, I'm thinking you're probably just frustrating yourself and irritating her with your persistant requests. Be glad you have a loyal woman that values the marriage more than outside sex partners. Maybe rechannel your interests. Mac ;)