I'm a 30 yo married man. I have a thick beautiful wife which I love with all my heart. I can't stand the thought of her being with another man, but boy,I have to admit: when I think of a BBC entering her, I get hard as a rock. I can't stop thinking about, but she will not even hear it. She's completely opposed to bringing someone in our bed, especially another man. I hinted a few times but to no avail. For me on the other hand it has become like an obsession. I masturbate watching close-ups of IR porn, thinking it's her and I saved tons of POV pics with BBC entering a fat white cunt just so I can imagine it's hers. I fantasize about her laying on her back and me sucking his BBC just to make it wet and throbbing, then put its head at the entrance of her pussy and see how it easily slides into her...I jacked off 3 times today and I'm about to do it again 'cause I got so horny writing my fantasy. At one point I was even considering giving her some roofies and after she's passed out, have a black guy come in and fuck her while she's out of it! How fucked up is that???? Can anybody please, PLEASE tell me what the fuck is the matter with me???