Every time I mention — even casually — that I love Black men, I brace myself, not for confusion or curiosity, but for the heat of white male outrage. As a white woman in a consensually nonmonogamous marriage with my white husband, I've been open about my preferences: romantically, sexually, and emotionally, I'm drawn to Black men. And that single truth ignites more fury than my nonmonogamy ever does.
I want to talk about that.
This is not just about who I find attractive. It's about how white supremacy, patriarchal entitlement, and personal liberation all collide the moment a white woman says out loud: I choose something else.
What I learned there, I could never unlearn.
The love was real, as was the community, and the quiet teachings about resilience, joy, pain, and pride were real. I began to see the world differently—not through a textbook or a tweet, but through lived intimate experiences. By the time that relationship ended, I had entirely rejected the racism I had been raised with, and I never looked back.
There's a kind of masculinity many Black men exude that's not performative but embodied—and it permits me to be entirely feminine. I don't have to fight to be heard or shrink to be desired. Too often, with white men, I'm either debating for my voice or managing their fragility. I feel invited to relax, glow, and be soft with Black men. There's room for me to exhale.
This isn't idealization. It's the emotional truth of where I feel most in balance.
They accuse me of being a fetishist, a race traitor, a degenerate. They toss words like "cuck," "whore," and worse into my inbox as if their cruelty could shame me back into silence. But what they're furious about isn't me. It's the shift I represent.
White male entitlement is deeply rooted in American culture — especially the belief that they are the standard, the pinnacle, the default. When someone like me publicly prefers something else, it shakes the illusion. And rather than reflect on that discomfort, they lash out.
That anger isn't just sexist. It's racist. And it's deeply tied to the broader ecosystem of online male grievance — the so-called "manosphere," where incels, red-pillers, and other fragile egos gather to bemoan a world they think owes them sex, love, and status.
They hate me not because I'm nonmonogamous. They hate me because I'm not choosing them.
In 2003, the Human Genome Project found that all humans share 99.9% of their DNA. The tiny percentage of variation among us does not correspond to traditional racial categories. Race, as science confirms, is a social construct—not a biological reality.
Source: Collins, F. S., et al. (2003). A Vision for the Future of Genomics Research. Genome.gov
So, if we talk about race, let's talk about power, history, and culture — not pseudoscience. Because white supremacy always tries to dress up its insecurity in the language of biology. But biology doesn't lie. Racists do.
Why does my joy — my private desire made public — trigger such rage in you? Why does a woman choosing something different feel like a threat? The truth is, no one owes you desire. Not your race. Not your gender. Not your heritage. Certainly not me.
Your identity is not diminished because I find something else beautiful. Love is not a pie. More for someone else does not mean less for you.
If hearing me say I prefer Black men makes you seethe, you're not angry at me. You're angry that your world no longer centers you by default.
And to the women who feel curious, conflicted, or quietly affirmed by my words: trust yourself. Desire doesn't need justification, but it does deserve honesty. Ask yourself where your preferences come from. Learn. Listen. Be open. But don't let shame silence you.
I live my truth not because it's provocative but it is mine. I believe in loving fully, rejecting fear, and claiming the kind of connection that feels most whole to me.
I'm not here to soothe bruised egos. I'm here to live freely. And that includes loving who I love, out loud, without apology.
I want to talk about that.
This is not just about who I find attractive. It's about how white supremacy, patriarchal entitlement, and personal liberation all collide the moment a white woman says out loud: I choose something else.
From Racist Roots to Radical Rejection
I grew up in a racist household. I wish I could soften that sentence, but I can't. The comments were casual and constant, the lines between "us" and "them" clearly drawn. But life, in its beautiful defiance, handed me a different story. My very first love—my first real, soul-shaking love—was a Black man. We were together for four years in college, and during that time, I was immersed in his world, his family, and his culture.What I learned there, I could never unlearn.
The love was real, as was the community, and the quiet teachings about resilience, joy, pain, and pride were real. I began to see the world differently—not through a textbook or a tweet, but through lived intimate experiences. By the time that relationship ended, I had entirely rejected the racism I had been raised with, and I never looked back.
What Preference Means
When I say I prefer Black men, I don't mean I've checked a box or assigned value by shade. I'm talking about how I feel in their presence — how I am seen, safe, and energized. Yes, I find Black men physically beautiful. But it's not just about appearance. It's how they express themselves — the confident, playful flirting they've mastered, the kind that's direct without being aggressive, sexy without being crude.There's a kind of masculinity many Black men exude that's not performative but embodied—and it permits me to be entirely feminine. I don't have to fight to be heard or shrink to be desired. Too often, with white men, I'm either debating for my voice or managing their fragility. I feel invited to relax, glow, and be soft with Black men. There's room for me to exhale.
This isn't idealization. It's the emotional truth of where I feel most in balance.
The Rage of White Men — and Why It's So Loud
Whenever I speak about this publicly — whether in writing or on my podcast — I'm met with a particular rage. Not from Black people. Not from women. But from white men.They accuse me of being a fetishist, a race traitor, a degenerate. They toss words like "cuck," "whore," and worse into my inbox as if their cruelty could shame me back into silence. But what they're furious about isn't me. It's the shift I represent.
White male entitlement is deeply rooted in American culture — especially the belief that they are the standard, the pinnacle, the default. When someone like me publicly prefers something else, it shakes the illusion. And rather than reflect on that discomfort, they lash out.
That anger isn't just sexist. It's racist. And it's deeply tied to the broader ecosystem of online male grievance — the so-called "manosphere," where incels, red-pillers, and other fragile egos gather to bemoan a world they think owes them sex, love, and status.
They hate me not because I'm nonmonogamous. They hate me because I'm not choosing them.
No, We Are Not Genetically Different
Let's make this clear: race is not biological. There are no inherent genetic differences that make one race superior to another.In 2003, the Human Genome Project found that all humans share 99.9% of their DNA. The tiny percentage of variation among us does not correspond to traditional racial categories. Race, as science confirms, is a social construct—not a biological reality.
Source: Collins, F. S., et al. (2003). A Vision for the Future of Genomics Research. Genome.gov
So, if we talk about race, let's talk about power, history, and culture — not pseudoscience. Because white supremacy always tries to dress up its insecurity in the language of biology. But biology doesn't lie. Racists do.
To the Haters: This Isn't About You
To the white men who feel personally attacked by my preference: ask yourselves why.Why does my joy — my private desire made public — trigger such rage in you? Why does a woman choosing something different feel like a threat? The truth is, no one owes you desire. Not your race. Not your gender. Not your heritage. Certainly not me.
Your identity is not diminished because I find something else beautiful. Love is not a pie. More for someone else does not mean less for you.
If hearing me say I prefer Black men makes you seethe, you're not angry at me. You're angry that your world no longer centers you by default.
And to the women who feel curious, conflicted, or quietly affirmed by my words: trust yourself. Desire doesn't need justification, but it does deserve honesty. Ask yourself where your preferences come from. Learn. Listen. Be open. But don't let shame silence you.
Radical Love Is the Most Honest Kind
I don't need permission to live this way. But I also won't pretend it's easy to speak openly when white fragility keeps raising its fists.I live my truth not because it's provocative but it is mine. I believe in loving fully, rejecting fear, and claiming the kind of connection that feels most whole to me.
I'm not here to soothe bruised egos. I'm here to live freely. And that includes loving who I love, out loud, without apology.