Too damn old cuck wannabe - is 50 to old to live your dream?

50 year old white cuck wannabe male who is sexually attracted to white women who like big dominant black men.

Well educated with degrees in both the social and biological sciences for most of my life I've had a particular fetish for white women who like black men. For most of the time I haven't known what to do with it and passed it off as a peccadillo or inconvenient kink, but it's persisted (curse it) and just like other factors in growing older (receding hair on head and hair appearing in ears and nostrils) it's growing and starting to be an inconvenience!

If there's a white female out there who thinks she may complement my particular fetish and tolerate my shortcomings then I'd love to hear from her.