Of course, as I think about the things that have happened and the life that we’re living, the term hotwife comes into play; as does the term cuckold. I’ve spent a fair amount of time reading about this cuckold/hotwife idea and what it’s supposed to be and mean. It seems that the life I’m living with my wife is very much with her as a “hotwife” as generally described (she openly has sex with other men with my knowledge). However, the cuckold description for me doesn’t seem to hold water. The ideals inherent in that definition seem to be some level of humiliation/degradation, denial of sex, and generally becoming completely submissive to the wife. In our case, though, none of this exists. My turn-on isn’t in the idea of being degraded because I can’t stand up and take my “husbandly” rights, but rather in experiencing different aspects of my wife’s sexuality, participating in a sexual adventure that we are sharing together, and not closing doors to sexual exploration just because of our vows to one another. In many ways, those vows remain as strong or stronger than they have ever been, and we get to participate in different things in life. I’m a bit confused at my enjoyment at the taste of another man’s cum as it oozes out of my wife, and I want to understand how/why/what that means. Is there a gay/bi component to that. I’m not sure. Nevertheless, I’m not at all confused about the aspect of her being with another guy and how that turns me on. It’s pornography starring the person I love the most. What’s better than that? Regardless, as I explore some “conventional” (although nothing about this seems conventional in any sense) terms surrounding what we’re doing, nothing seems to fit the bill. But isn’t that true of all of our sexuality? Don’t we defy labels, especially if and when we let ourselves diverge from the accepted roles that we’re supposed to play? I’m excited about the prospect of paving our own way, and seeing where our thoughts and desires take us on a journey together.