Still searching and feeling very undesirable

[fuckityfuckslut]

I know at 5 feet 4 inches and 185ish pounds I'm not that desirable.
I also know that with special needs adult dependents makes me more undesirable.
I know I"m not pretty
But I'm tired of promises
I'm tired of people who want long distance
and I'm tired of the we'll hook up when I come to town.
I will skype a local real person,
Is it so bad that I want to find a local master preferably mid thirties or older and more local than DC, because financially I'm unable to travel.
Also I know double life and working around autistic dependent and older dependents living at home (all 20+) makes things difficult, and undesirable.
But damn can't someone find me desirable enough to be a master and give me BBC?

Frustrated, sexless, and looking for something I am not finding

 

[Jodaddyitsaboy]

Genuinely sorry to hear of your plight.
Feeling unwanted is something that sucks.
I think most unintentional unknowing cucks would agree the sex itself isn't painful. It's the feeling unwanted that truly hurts but not in a good way.