I am going to get flammed a bit here. But I have been thinking about this a lot. By way of introduction, i am an educated, 32 year old, white woman, in an open marriage with my wonderful husband. I also have an appetite for black cock. We are not into the humiliation thing. My husband more than satisfies me sexually. He "makes love" to me. Our adventures with other lovers boils down to one thing. The love of variety and spontaneity. We like to fuck different people. Tall, short, chubby, skinny, big cocks and small. However, in recent years I have found that I enjoy BBC more than the others. Not only that, I find myself willing to do things with my black lovers that I refused to do before (even with my husband). My first anal experience was with a black man. My first gangbang was with black men. My first bareback experience (not with my husband of course) was with a black man. I have fucked black men in public toilets, in adult movie theaters, in parking lots, and once in a halfway constructed house. It has gotten to the point that pretty much any goodlooking black man can get my panties off. The question is why? What makes black men so special. The oft repeated arguments on this site include "racial superiority" and/or "white guilt for slavery, etc." I call both of those arguments bullshit pulled out of perverted fantasies with little basis in truth. In my musings, I have come to the conclusion that it all boils down to racism. Ultimately the idea that people of a certain race are inherently different, i.e. racism, is what drives this. Please understand, I am not talking about "hate". I don't think that "hate" and "racism" are necessarily the same thing. I am talking about the fact that we look at black men differently than we do men of other races. For me, my desire is to do something exciting and different. I see a black man, and I imagine that he has a big cock, and that he is a virulent lover. I think about how naughty and wrong it is for an educated white woman to let this man fuck her. And when he tells me to choke on his cock, or to present my ass, I do it, because deep down, I am afraid of what he will do if I don't. I care little for his personality, I don't mind if he is a "thug", has tattoos, or speaks incorrectly. In fact, those things turn me on more because it ads to the "forbidden fruit" element. Bottom line, I make all of these assumptions before I say two word to him. In short, I judge him based on preconceived notions centered around the color of his skin. In other words, i am racist. This doesn't bother me though. I still enjoy the sex, and often my preconceived notions are correct. Still, I think it is important that we are honest about our motivations.