Hotitalian ... I see several points that need to be made here for you.
- don't confuse your realities with your fantasies ... not all fantasies are meant to be lived out
- realize that part of sharing your wife is the stimulations and surge of emotions you get watching her enjoy sex with other men, but it's still primarily about HER pleasure, not yours. You should want her to have sex with other men if it heightens her sexual pleasures; if your desires are only for you, you're in it for the wrong reasons.
- also, understand that each man, who is sharing his wife, reacts emotionally different to seeing their wife having sex with other men. Some men react positively (get stimulated), some react negatively (get jealous or angry), and some men have a smorgasbord of emotions. Only you and your wife can decide if sharing her with other men is enhancing or damaging your own relationship with each other. I, myself, have a fantasy of watching my wife get repeatily gangbanged by 5-10 men (and I've shared that fantasy with her), but it will always be a fantasy. Most she has ever had at once are 3 men (which included me), and she was quite sore afterwards.
Just try to remember, this activitiy should be stimulating your sexual relationship for each other ... if it isn't, maybe you need to reconsider what you're doing. JMO ... Mac