North Alabama Cuckold wannabe

I am a closet cuckold. Sad part is I probably will always be. The thought of watching my wife squirm from a BBC fucking gives me an instant hard on. The problem is she will not have any part of it. She has made that clear in no uncertain terms. So what's a cuckold to do but watch videos, look at pictures, read all of your stories and jerk off.

Sad, I know but it is what it is.
Very Frustrating isn't it? Have you ever had the opportunity to be a cuckold? I have been in a MMF three-way but not with a bbc. I would love to share thoughts and experiences. If you feel more comfortable talking about it in conversation I would welcome the opportunity to discuss.