newly retired divorced 20+ yrs

I am a newly retired straight white man who loves to watch white women enjoy big black cocks. I never had the opportunity to actually witness anything like that in person but sites like this one are a godsend. All but one of my female companions has never had experience with blacks and she didn't want to talk about it. The rest were repulsed when I mentioned it in bed. Very frustrating!
I am not much of a conversationalist, usually very shy with females until I get to know them. However watching a pretty white wife getting plowed by a black man really gets my engine revving. I don't desire to participate during the encounter but would rather watch then enjoy the woman afterwards.