New developments in my relationship and hope to get a little advice. If you have read the following thread you know the wife and I have been playing with dildos. The link is below. I have several pics of her in this thread and one below. Reading this thread may give you some background info on us. https://www.blacktowhite.net/threads/love-fucking-my-wife-with-a-big-black-dildo.37259/ My ultimate fantasy is for her to have sex with a hung black man while I watch and video. When we play I am always talking and stating how good she looks and how I like watching those cocks sliding in and out of her pretty little pussy. Anyway, recently I changed from talking about the dildo as an object and started talking about it like it was a real man. Basically went from saying, "Your pussy looks so pretty with the dildo sliding deep into you and stretching you," to stating, "I am sitting beside the bed as he is sliding his big black cock into you." "He loves your pussy." "He is really taking your pussy." "How do you like his bbc." "Is he doing your pussy good." So, the true fantasy came out. It wasn't just us playing with toys. It was me living out a true fantasy with black dildos. She was a little upset. She stated, "I think you might actually want me to be with someone else." At that point I confessed, I told her over the last decade I had fantasized about her being with a black man with a large cock. You must understand, my wife is very conservative and playing with dildos was a big leap. Porn is not allowed, etc. So this was a bit of a shock for her, underneath I think she knew, but this is the first time I came out and admitted it. Well, she said she didn't want to be a disappointment to me, but she couldn't do it. She asked, "Please don't make me do it." I told her, "I would never make you do something you didn't want to do." We talked and I gave more detail how it would be anonymous and in a hotel. No one would know who she was. I told her about the word cuckold. I told her that I didn't want to be with other women, etc. The next night we had sex and I was mostly silent. You should know I am a talker during sex. My talk revolves around my fantasy. The following are common phrases: "You love sucking cock." "You are fantastic cocksucker." (that was a stretch the first time I said it, but she actually responded positively to the statement.) "You could please any man with your cock sucking skills." "I am so lucky to have a wife that loves sucking cock." "You have a hungry little pussy." "Your pussy loves cock doesn't it?" If we are playing with dildos I would add: "Does that big black cock feel good." "Is that pussy hungry for that big black cock." So, when I was mostly silent the next night she asked me to talk. She actually likes the sex talk, but I told her I didn't know what to say. I stated, "All my phrases are about the fantasy and now that I know you are not into it, I don't know what to say. I don't want to upset you now the cat is out of the bag." She said she is sorry she is a disappointment to me. I assured her she is not a disappointment to me and that I loved her. She asked if I had already talked to someone and I assured her I had not. I almost thought she was curious. Well anyway, this got me thinking and I put a anonymous ad on Craigslist for a couple seeking a bbc and got several replies. One in particular hit my interests. He has an 8 inch cock that looks pretty nice and said he would love to meet and talk about it. I had him send me another pic with his right hand holding three fingers extended next to his cock to prove that he was real. Sure enough a pic of the same cock with his three fingers extended came that evening. Now the advice for moving forward. I thought I would meet with this guy and discuss the rules and see what I thought of him and if he would be compatible. I told him I would like to see his cock in person and get a few pics of it. I then thought I might tell the wife I met someone who was interested and show her the pics. Tell her I hope she is not mad at me. Let her know I showed him some faceless pics and he thought she was hot. See if she would consider it. If not just drop it for a while. I thought about asking her to watch this video explaining what cuckold was. She may not as she won't watch porn, but it may also excite her. Well, you can see where I am at and any advice is appreciated. Here is a pic of her.