doesn't exist so here in its place is this post. Let me be clear, this is not the only such site I visit, this just happens to be one of the more laid back, human forums. But lately apparently a couple of you don't want human and you don't like it when I post about things in my life as I am apt to do in any forum I am involved with. While I agree that it is probably not in keeping with the spirit of this forum, I just try to add another demension if you can choose to see it that way. I do this on EVERY forum I am on because it just makes me feel better, just to talk, just to be human reactiong with other humans. But let me get this clear before I give you your dues. I do NOT suffer from a mental illness. desire is not a mental illness. Nor is curiosity, nor fear, nor doubt,cold feet,hot head, drunk posting or lust. ANd neither is love. I have been nice in the past and in an effort to keep the peace, I have said " yea, I probably do have a mental illness" but no more. I am fine and just like evryone here I have my strengths, my weaknesses my scars and my victories. Having said all that, here is your dues I promised. just like I have the right to all those things, you have the right to be annoyed at me, and the right to express it. If I stay here, I will surely become that cheater to my husband and family that was made infinitely clear in a private conversation I had the other night. and that is a decision I have to make and will decide upon. in the meantime, just skip my posts if you do not like me, or PM me instead because I am not going to argue here any more, nor agree with your false assessment of me to keep the peace.