I feel so trapped and conflicted. Every white woman I have ever known has cheated on me with a big buck black man. It's too much. I might committ suicide if I can't cure myself of this addiction.
I once experienced being trapped & conflicted, so I know how that is. I was at the movies with this really hot chick and went to the bathroom, just before the movie was to start. I was in a hurry and zipped my dick up in the zipper of my jeans ... I wasn't sure whether to zip it back down, or just pull, or let my shirt tail hang over my zipper until I got home. I was in real pain ... ******* coming out all over the place. I waddled over to a private stale from the urinal for privacy ... finally I decided to zip back down ... I let out a yell, took some toilet paper to soak up the *******, and relent to the fact that I wouldn't be getting any pussy that night. Really sucked!
So, I know how you feel!