One of my first gfs had a lot of female friends having babies with black men. After she dumped me and I tried to get her back, it became common knowledge I was a tiny itty-bitty boi down below. I later swung with a few girls, and was never the bigger man. I guess I liked how grateful those girls were, how much wilder they acted fucking the other guy, and the occasional smirks they gave me later. I wanted to please my lady, even when it meant seeing her get more, or much more from a better man. Even though we might still be together, afterwards, hearing her whisper, giggle with her girl friends about girth, and what size made me hard while also emasculating. The excitement and shame was an intoxicating desire. I was hooked.